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| Fri, 01-19-2007 - 12:08am |
Hey. I justed started crying and needed an outlet. My husband tries to help but he doesn't know what to do. I needed to talk with someone about this.
The second week of December, my mom was diagnosed with lung cancer in the last stage. A few years ago, my mom had two "mini strokes" and after that she was diagnosed with COPD. So I figured eventually she would end up with lung cancer.
Her health had been deteriorating especialy over the last year. I have a three year old daughter and I didn't ask my mom to keep her unless my dad would be there. Because I knew that it would be too much for mom.
My mom was my very best friend. I am the only girl. She died very suddenly on January 5th. Not even a month after the diagnoses. Mom decided not to have treatment because it had already spread to the fluid surrounding her heart. The only option left was hospice. She stayed on the hospice unit for three weeks (because she was requiring so much oxygen). She wanted to go home so badly. The nurses had weaned her oxygen down enough to go home. We got her home and she died about 45 minutes later. I had prayed that God would take her quickly so that she would not have to suffer and that I could be there. He granted both my requests. I do not regret my prayers. I just feel so lost and numb. We buried her on Janurary 8th. I haven't cried much since then. I don't know why. I miss her terribly. I know that it hasn't been that long, but my heart longs to talk to her. I have been reading a book called "90 minutes in heaven" and this has given me some peace. I just needed to "talk".

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Come and talk here any time. You are welcome here and among friends.
Take it slow and easy for a while. Do only the things that must get done. Pamper yourself and snuggle that little one. Tell your DH that holding you helps...and it will, I promise.
Moms are special people...and I am pretty sure that even though I can't see mine anymore (she died in 2001), she is with me still.
Blessings,
Melissa
Melissa
My heart goes out to you for the loss of your precious mother, my sincere condolences to you and your family.
The bond of mother and daughter is an incredibly powerful one. It's wonderful that you shared a loving and very close relationship, the two of you.
Allyson
Allyson
Welcome to our board, (((((Allyson))))).
Allyson
Allyson
Allyson - my sympathies to you and your family.
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