Numb after sisters death
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| Fri, 01-19-2007 - 7:58am |
I am new to this forum. My sister passed away Dec. 29, 2006 after a very long battle with cancer. She was only 54 years old. She died at home and I was with her at the time. I thought I would die from the pain of her passing. She wasn't just my sister, she was my best friend. She was only 12 months younger than me.
My problem is: the first week I did nothing but cry. Now I just feel numb. I can look at pictures of her, talk about her and make myself think about her and I don't feel anything. I know I miss her and will miss her for the rest of my life but I just don't feel any emotions right now. I feel guilty if I laugh about anything; I feel guilty if I don't cry and am very matter-of-fact when I talk about her; but I don't cry. I feel there is something wrong with me.

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My sister died on December 10, 2004. She had a long battle with lupus. She was 47. Like you, I experienced a period of numbness. It passed...and then I wished it hadn't. The pain has lessened now, but it was bad for a while.
Please know that you are experiencing something normal, and welcome to our board...we know what you are feeling.
Beth
I''m very sorry to hear of the sad loss of your cherished sister, my deepest condolences to you and your family.
As the other ladies have verified, feeling of numbness are very common.
Allyson
Im so sorry to read of your loss.
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