Introducing myself.....

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Introducing myself.....
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Mon, 03-12-2007 - 9:20pm

I have been lurking for a while now, and wasn't sure if I wanted to join this board or not. But, I have decided to bite the bullet.

Anyway, I am dogandcat, live in Midwest. I lost my mom to essentially a heart attack due to not enough oxygen on January 21, 2007. I was in the apartment when she passed away--I was in a different room writing some notes down for my stepdad and I went to see if she was okay (she also had a viral infection for over a month--lots of wheezing and asthma going on) and there she was---gone. I won't get into the details but the image I have of seeing my poor mother laying like that was one I hope no one ever has to see. I am having the hardest time with that part of her death, and now that the funeral is over, not many phone calls, etc, I miss her terribly! A little over a week ago was my birthday, and it was weird to not get a phone call from her.

I want anythig to bring her back, I miss her so much.

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Wed, 03-14-2007 - 6:03pm

You make complete sense. I think it's like most forms of grief in that unless you have personally been through it you can't really know the blow it deals. I can come close, but I just don't know. I'm not offended by that at all.

I just hope you are able to find comfort in going to her site.

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Registered: 11-17-2006
Wed, 03-14-2007 - 9:22pm

(((hugs)))

I want to express my condolences to you and your family on the death of your mother.

I also wanted to share my thoughts with you... I just this week went to visit my late boyfriends grave site for the first time. I felt so similiarly in that I didn't want to leave him alone. He was by himself in the row... no one near... and being that he's so young, the first in his family to pass as well. All alone. But I completely understand your desire to just visit her so she's not alone... I understand. It was hard for me to get up and leave when if he were here with me he wouldn't ever have to be alone.

It kinda feels silly to think like that... but at the same time makes complete sense.

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Thu, 03-15-2007 - 7:37pm

No, what you said is in no way silly. It totally makes sense. I wonder what makes us think this way. I mean you know they really aren't alone, but it just feels that way. The first time I went, I wanted to take her with me and never ever let her go. I kind of didn't want to leave either, but I just didn't know what to do after I bawled my eyes out and told her a lot.

Anyway, enough babbling. thanks for the condolences. My heart goes out to you and your family on your loss too.

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Fri, 03-16-2007 - 10:30am

I completely understand.

(((hugs)))

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Wed, 03-21-2007 - 2:23am
Hi
I know what that's all about! Losing a mom that is.... Very hard! My mom passed away almost 10 years ago now, but sometimes it seems like yesterday. Just 3 weeks ago, my mother in law died unexpectantly and that has been very hard for me also since she was just like a mom to me. Some days I feel so lost. With my own mom, she used to call every Sunday around 8:00 AM. She passed away on a Sunday and the following Sunday, my brother was at my house helping me with some things. At a little after 8 AM the phone rang. I froze at first and then answered the phone. Believe me or not...no one was there and the phone went dead. I lost it at that moment, just thinking that it was my mom calling to make sure I was doing okay. Like I have told my husband, I know what the pain is all about with losing both my parents. It's hard...but life does go on. Think of it this way....would your mom want you suffering over this? What you seen is a a very hard ans difficult thing. I know... I was a CNA for 25 years in nursing homes. You will NEVER forget your mom. You will ALWAYS have the memories. Those are the things to remember. That's what your mom would want.
I hope I have helped you some. If not....I am sorry.
So sorry for your loss.
Take Care!

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