Neverending Grieving Process
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| Mon, 04-02-2007 - 4:47am |
After writing about how after 4 years my life is a lot better, it is in a way. I don't go out and party like I do, now I just deal with things. However, when I finally have accepted my mother's death, in September of 2006, a friend, who was like a father to me since I was 10 years old, died. Of course that brought back a lot of feelings and my therapist made me realized that I was giving him the grieving that he deserved as well. He was very sick and I'm happy that he's not suffering anymore, but now I'm feeling all the sadness and anxiety that I didn't feel before.
On april 12th I fly to his funeral service which will be on the 14th. I think it will be more of a reception, but still, I'm heading there alone. His daughters will be there and it will be nice to see them, but I will be heading back to the hotel alone. I haven't talked to anyone about my feelings, not even my brother and sister. I can never tell them the sadness I feel inside, I don't know why. They are there for me, but this is just too sad.
Anyway, I'm rambling, but I had to express myself a bit at least. Honestly I could write forever, but I won't, seeing as there are only 24 hours in a day.

(((((Scorpioheart))))), my heart goes out to
It is a never ending process which is why we have to love so much the times in between. It may sound pessimistic but this is what life is all about. Good times and bad times come and go and we have to make every single moment the best we can because we don't know when it will all change again. Death is imminent for us all and loss is a big part of life. Sometimes I find it amazing that we never get use to it.....wouldn't you think we would after experiencing it a few times??????
I hope this helps.
Kiki
((((scorpioheart))))
So sorry for your losses. The way you write about this man comes across as your feelings are so much like a daughter would feel for her father.He sounds like he was a very nice man.
Somtimes just writting down your feelings (journal) can help a great deal. Putting it all down on paper and getting those feelings out can lift tons of weight off your shoulders. My mom has passed away 2 years ago, and when it was her 2nd anniversary in Jan. I sat down and wrote her a letter, and got all my feelings down and everything I wanted to tell her, and it felt so good. It was so theraputic and calming for me.
Whenever you feel the need to express yourself, know that we are all here for you. The women here are very thoughtful and supportive.
((((((hugs))))) Miriam
The title of your post is so true...it is never ending...and each loss reminds me of the others.
Peace to you today, at least.
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This is a message to all of you who have responded. I thank you for writing me and "listening" to what I have to say. Since my mother passed away I have written letters to her, thoughts, poetry, a bit of everything. I have spoken a bit to my family, more to my aunt, my mother's sister, but it is very nice to find people who have gone through the same or similar situations but aren't close to you.
This coming saturday is my friend's funeral and I'm preparing myself for the trip. I've actually been ok lately and had no negative thoughts or depressing feelings, which is good. Work keeps me busy, so that's good. Easter week I stayed home and didn't do anything too productive, which was fine with me since it was cold and rainy outside.
Anyway, enough babble, just wanted to thank all of you who responded in a general message.