Update on my friend
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| Wed, 05-23-2007 - 10:46am |
I want to make it short because I don't want to disrespect anyone on this board in regards to the what might be perceived as unimportant......because the loss I have suffered over the course of the past 2 weeks is just as painful as if he had died.
I ended my friendship with G yesterday final final. He refuses to speak to me and I can't continue to allow myself to be treated the way he is treating me so I sent an email letting him know that his behavior is unacceptable and I am ending the friendship.
After 13 years of being closer to him than anyone in my whole life (including family) I am stunned that we have ended up here....it's like a bad dream to actually experience this. I never ever thought we would end....we promised each other our love and friendship till the day we parted by death. We planned on sitting on that porch in our rocking chairs in our old age....now it's over. WOW....it hurts so badly.
Today is a better day than yesterday and I know that it was the right decision because I demand to be treated with respect and anyone who won't do that doesn't deserve to be in my life. I wish more women would live this way...never allowing anyone to treat them less than what they deserve. I can look myself in the mirror knowing that I again made the right decision. I would much rather be single (not alone by any means) than put up with any man's crap especially one like G who was far more than any man could have been for me even though we didn't have "that" type of relationship. It was a marriage of sorts but without the sex. It was a healthy relationship and one that most people would never have experienced but somehow somewhere it went haywire. I won't blame him because I had my annoyances for sure.
I am moving forward and will learn to be without him. WOW.....13 years to learn who I am without him to be there for me all the time.
Thanks for letting me post and I hope I didn't step on anyone's toes.
Kiki
p.s. Miriam - I just wanted to let you know that I didn't end my friendship with my co-worker B and we are doing good. I just ended the unrealistic expectations and have enjoyed it for what it is. Who know what the future holds and right now I won't try to pursue anything to get past the loss of my best friend. Thanks for the encouragement to keep him around for a while longer.

((((((((((KIKI)))))))))
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