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| Sun, 07-01-2007 - 1:46pm |
I'm a 30yr old female.My brother at the age of 32 commited suicide.He was married with a 4yr old daugthter and a 5 yr old daughter and a baby on the way.The baby will be 2yrs old in October.My brother owned his own buisness.The family went on vacations.Everybody thought my brother and his family were happy.He hid it very well that he was depressed and in finacial trouble.

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Just wanted to let you know that you're not alone with all the emotional qustions running through your mind. Our son committed suicide thirteen years ago and left a wife and a six month old daughter. My husband was so devastated that I thought for a while he was going to slip away from me, too. There's so many questions that arise with suicide. You wonder about the why and how come I didn't know. What could I have done to help and why didn't they reach out to those who love.
The best answer I ever got was through a counseling session where they tried to explain the severe depression is like walking down a long, dark tunnel only there no light at the end and there seems to way out. I still don't understand about a permanent solution to what is usually a temporary problem but sometimes those we love just can't seem to find any other answer.
I will try and tell you that it does get better. There will be a day when you don't have to remind yourself to smile, breath and even put one foot in front of the other. the grief will never go away completely but you will learn to incorporate it in your everyday life.
I think the hardest part for me has been that his daughter will never know what a great person her dad was. He had a laugh and a smile that could light up a room. I see so much of her in him and it really makes her feel good when she moves her head or does something and I'll say "You look just like your dad when you do that."
Hold onto the good memories especially to pass them on to his children.
Know you're not alone and my thoughts and prayers are with you.
Jan
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