Mom died suddenly...I feel so lost
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| Thu, 07-12-2007 - 7:57pm |
Hello,
I'm glad I stumbled across this board. On June 23, 2007, I lost my Mom suddenly to what was either a major heart attack or a stroke. She never regained consciousness and never got stabled enough for them to do a CT scan of her brain to confirm stroke or heart attack. It all happened so fast! My mom lived with my hubby and I and my six kids ages 22 yo to 15 months. She was my caregiver to my children, my rock and pilar of strength. I miss her terribly and feel so empty. I am scared and anxious wondering if I can go on without her. And I know I must in order to raise my children, the grandchildren she so loved and adored. I have a twin sister and it is just as devasting for her and her children as well.
Thank you for letting me share my story. I hope to learn from all of you, how to grieve and go on living.

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Thank you so much for taking the time to reply to my post. I've been lurking (at work) so haven't been able to post but I was so touched by yours. The one where you posted about losing your only son. I understand your pain and I've heard the losing a child is a mother's worst pain, so I feel for you. All the emotions you mentioned...being scared, angry, lost, hurt...yes and so many more...I feel them all. I've been crying everyday, mostly on my drive home from work. I used to call my mom all the time from work to ask her how the kids were and how her day was going. Now, when I get the urge to call her...all I get is the empty feeling inside when I realize she is gone. Thank you for your advice to take care of myself. It's hard...being the mother of 6. My eldest son still lives with me but he will be 23 in a few days. He works and goes to school. Then I have a 16 yo and 14 yo son, 9 yo daughter, 4 yo daughter and a 16 month old son. They still all depend on me so much. It's been hard to take care of myself. But tonight I went with my cousin to get a pedicure and it was really nice having time to myself.
You are right that this will be a long and probably difficult process. We will never really "get over it" but will learn to live with the loss. I don't know if you are religious but how I get by each day is to thank God for blessing my with my Mom and thanking Him for the time I had with her. And I know that God is always with me and that my Mom is in a much better place. I will pray that your heart will heal soon and that the pain will be replaced by the beautiful memories you have of your loving son.
Everyone on this board has been so kind. It's just the place I need. Thank you to everyone else who has taken the time to reply to my post. I'm not happy that we all share a bond because we've lost our loved ones but I am happy that we're able to share and support each other because we understand the pain.
You are a very wise woman!
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