Loss of Son

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Registered: 08-17-2005
Loss of Son
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Mon, 07-16-2007 - 4:58pm
My only child, a 20-year-old son passed away 4th of July. Someone sold him Oxycotin, he fell asleep and never woke up. I went to wake him up on the couch for the 4th of July celebration and he was dead. It has been almost two weeks and I feel numb. All I can do is cry. I feel anger until the police get the two people who sold it to him. I feel anger that he bought something in the first place. He was my life. I hadn't dated in 15 years because all I wanted was to have him get his life together. He was gorgeous, sweet, loved his Mom and now I feel like there is nothing left. My name is Susie. I live in Allen, Texas and am 55 years old in a few days. He didn't do it on purpose. He graduated 5 weeks ago and I buried him in his graduation gown. I guess I am rambling but I look forward to getting and giving support here. Thank you. Susie
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Registered: 06-04-2004
In reply to: suzeeh1952
Tue, 09-11-2007 - 3:37pm

Susie and all others who posted here about losing a child,

I just wanted to tell you all how amazing I think you all are. I've lost several of the closest people in my life but I cannot imagine how hard it would be to lose a child. I know we all get through because we have to and we find that inner strength to go forward but I admire how brave and strong you are and just wanted to let you know that.

I'm very sorry for all of your losses.

Julie

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Registered: 08-17-2005
In reply to: suzeeh1952
Sat, 11-03-2007 - 11:44pm

I haven't posted for quite a while and wanted to talk about what's been going on.

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Registered: 05-11-2003
In reply to: suzeeh1952
Tue, 11-06-2007 - 6:58pm
Suzeeh,
I'm so, so sorry for your loss. I really love how you celebrated his life on his birthday. That is inspiring.
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Registered: 08-17-2005
In reply to: suzeeh1952
Tue, 11-06-2007 - 9:02pm
This experience is the most devastating, gut wrenching of my life.
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Registered: 12-16-2006
In reply to: suzeeh1952
Mon, 11-12-2007 - 2:47pm

Susie,


It is so nice to hear from you. I have been wondering how you were doing. I know Halloween was a hard time for me too. Kevin's favorite time of the year.

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Registered: 08-17-2005
In reply to: suzeeh1952
Mon, 11-12-2007 - 3:12pm

Deborah,


I just recently heard about the December 9th candle lighting which is Jordan's Dad's birthday as well.

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Registered: 08-15-2005
In reply to: suzeeh1952
Mon, 11-12-2007 - 6:22pm

Oh Susie

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Registered: 09-13-2005
In reply to: suzeeh1952
Fri, 11-16-2007 - 10:02pm

(((((Susie)))))


My deepest condolences on the loss of your dear son, Jordan. What a wonderful tribute to him by celebrating his life on his birthday. May the good memories of Jordan help you through your sadness and grief.


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Registered: 03-01-2004
In reply to: suzeeh1952
Sat, 11-17-2007 - 7:39pm

Wow Lelia,


I like the way you think. What a comforting thought no death just from one place to another.

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Registered: 03-26-2003
In reply to: suzeeh1952
Sat, 11-17-2007 - 8:13pm
You are welcome Angie. Where in Maine are you? I am near portsmouth. There are some great books about life continuing. leila