PLZ let me know if I'm normal/loser?

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Registered: 06-29-2007
PLZ let me know if I'm normal/loser?
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Sat, 07-21-2007 - 4:13am

Is this normal behaviour. This afternoon I was having a sleep and I was dreaming that DH and I were at a church, the next thing I know I see Sarah with my ex's parents and then we turned around and I saw Cameron playing. I asked them why they didn't let me see my son and they said because we were hiding him.

I never dreamt about him, maybe once or twice. It like my body was shut off for the last couple years and now I seem to be turned on. I feel such a loser and a horrible person. DH dreamed about him more than I ever had. He must think I never loved him. I woke up crying at being a failure.

Rochelle

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Sat, 07-21-2007 - 10:32am

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Honey, you are not alone.

AcornLeaves
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Sat, 07-21-2007 - 7:29pm

Thanks for letting me know I'm normal. I just thought it was unusual that I didn't dream about him until now. Hubby came up with a good reason why I dreamt about him now. He reckons it cause he wants to let me know he ok and is happy.

Hugs Rochelle

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Sat, 07-21-2007 - 10:11pm

Does that help you?


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AcornLeaves
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Sun, 07-22-2007 - 9:29am

Yeah it does help, sometimes I think he must be lonely in heaven since none my family is religious and hubby and I are the only ones. What things helps make you feel better?

Hugs Rochelle

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Sun, 07-22-2007 - 12:09pm

Most of the special people in my life who have died were elderly, so my situation is somewhat different.

AcornLeaves
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Mon, 07-23-2007 - 1:57am

I've had only one dream of my mother and in the dream I was telling her I thought you were gone Mom and she told me she wasn't really and that her sister had been hiding her.

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Mon, 07-23-2007 - 10:33am

Yes it does help a fair bet better. Cameron loved animals especially our dog we got before he died. He named it Buba. I never know why? LOL.

I don't see your weird that you connect to your father's father through nature. Between the three pets the closest one I am to is Buba because Buba and Cameron used to play together.

Is it normal to have weird things going on round you like for example. When Matt and I watching telly it either goes up blaring or changes channels. Another thing when Matt used to work nightshift and when he came home one of the street lights will be off and when he get closer it comes on.

Hugs Rochelle

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Mon, 07-23-2007 - 10:38am

Sorry if I offend you like that. I just woke up terrified and had no one at home at the time when I vented this. I don't see anyone here as a loser or not normal. I do know I need to get over Cameron's death but I don't know how. I'm stuck and haven't got anywhere.

So please do not ever think I see you a loser or not normal ok. What I read about you a lovely lady with a caring heart.

Hugs Rochelle

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Mon, 07-23-2007 - 10:57am

I don't think it's abnormal and I certainly don't think you are a loser!!! I think people just deal with a death in different ways. I've only had one or 2 dreams about my mom, who I lost only 6 months ago. I don't think it means much if you don't dream about him. I know some people who have never had a dream about anything, but I actually don't think that's the case. Maybe you or that person had a dream and you just didn't remember it. I think you have to be in a certain mode to remember your dreams.

I hope you start feeling better!

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Mon, 07-23-2007 - 11:07am

Well, I'm not quite sure ....

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