I'm so lost

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Registered: 05-30-2006
I'm so lost
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Sun, 08-05-2007 - 9:29pm
On Monday July 2, 2007 my life was shattered. I lost my true and only love my husband. He was 44 and healthy as far as we new. I had left Sunday the day before to visit my mother and my daughter and meet my 1st grandson whom I hadn’t seen yet. They were flying in from California and stay for a week and my husband was going to meet us on the 4th of July. I was at the airport when I got the call on my cell. The person on the other end was asking if I new A Charles I said yes and he informed me that Charles had a massive heart attack at work and didn’t make it. I handed the phone to my mother and fell apart in the airport. In five minutes I met my grandson and lost my one and only. . How does this happen. We were so in love and happy we did every thing together. I don’t know why I am here. If people die from a broken heart than why am I still alive? I know soul mates can’t be separated. I am so lost with out him and the pain is so unbearable. How do people survive without the very thing you were living for? Does any one know?
Thanks Lisa.
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Registered: 08-05-2006
Mon, 08-06-2007 - 1:10am

Oh Lisa,

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Mon, 08-06-2007 - 8:21am

Lisa


I am so sorry. What a rollercoaster of emotions! Not to mention a pretty stark way of getting the news.


In these initial days, do what needs to be done. That also includes taking care of you. Fruits make nice, light things to eat, when we don't want to eat anything, by the way.


Please know we are here for you.

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Registered: 01-26-2004
Mon, 08-06-2007 - 8:18pm

(((((Lisa))))), we reach out to you here with open arms.

AcornLeaves
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Registered: 12-06-2003
Mon, 08-06-2007 - 11:45pm

(((Lisa))) I am so sorry for your loss. You've come to a good place, and have already read some comforting words, but I wanted you to know you are not alone. It's been 27 months for us today, since I, too, lost my one and only true love and soulmate at 44 years old. It's still not "real" for us. I miss him so very, very much. I had to be reminded in those early days where you are, to just breathe. Just get through the next hour (or sometimes minute). You can do it. Yes, the pain is intense and like none other that you have experienced and hopefully will ever experience, but you'll make it. Yes, you wonder why you are still here, yet you are and you can make it. Yes, that void not only broke your heart but shattered it in a million pieces, but you will make it.

I don't know how we survive without the one thing we were living for. I just know we do, but it hurts. It hurts a ton. (((((Hugs)))))

Someone from this board suggested I go to the YWBB (Young Widows BB...I know, I hate that word too), and it was a huge help to me. I haven't been there in over a year, but I met friends that I still keep in contact with through email who were life-savers for me. I hope you find some help there, as I know you will find it here as well. Keep posting. That may help....getting those feelings out in words. Or journal. Start now. That helps as well.

Hang in there....you will make it. Breathe. One hour, or minute, at a time. Wendy