I miss my Daddy
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|Mon, 07-05-2010 - 10:17pm|
I just lost my dad to brain cancer two days before Father's Day. He was 62 years old. We had found out that he had a brain tumor about 16 months before that, while I was 4 months pregnant with my first child. We knew, by the nature of his particular cancer, that the longest we could hope for was 2 years.
It has now been a little over two weeks since he died, and I still feel like this is all a dream. My mother is currently staying with me, and she has been taking this very hard - she is heavily medicated most of the time. I am always comforting my mother (today was their 40 year anniversary) and I feel like I don't get any time to grieve. On top of that, my 11 month old son is teething, so it seems like there is someone crying at my house all of the time, and it is very hard for me to take.
Luckily, I have a terrific husband, but I am afraid for my mother. She has never been alone, and I don't know if she will be able to do it. I have checked for support groups for her, and it seems like they are all off for the summer - none of them in our area start again until September. Don't people die over the summer???
I have been on other message boards on this site, as I had a lot of trouble conceiving my son. I thought that this would be a good, familiar place for me to come back to. I am trying to get through every day, but it is so hard - I feel like my daddy was the glue that held us all together.
I hope I can make some friends here, so we can help each other.