10 weeks ago today for my Mom
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|Sat, 07-24-2010 - 4:59am|
HI, I just counted on the calendar, 10 weeks ago today. I use to call my Mom on saturdays, or fridays if we would be gone on saturday morning, so every week I feel it worse on those days. My husband asked yesterday what would I like to do this weekend; I said visit Mom, meaning I wished she was still alive. But hubby gently said not yet meaning I am too young to die and go to heaven.
My sister found a saying in Mom's purse. Guessing she cut it out from a paper or magazine; I find myself reading it and trying to live by it.
Here it is:
If I Had My Life to Live Over
I'd dare to make more mistakes next time. I'd relax. I'd limber up. I'd be sillier than I have been this trip. I'd take fewer things seriously. I'd take more chances. I'd take more trips. I'd climb more mountains and swim more rivers. I'd eat more ice cream and less beans. I'd start barefoot earlier in the spring and stay that way later in the fall. I'd go to more dances. I'd ride more merry-go-rounds. I'd pick more daisies. I'd perhaps have more actual troubles, but I'd have fewer imaginary ones.
I tried kayaking for the first time this week, and thought of Mom; not that she would have picked that activity, but to do something in honor of Mom that is no longer here doing things. Got teary eyed at work yesterday, so took a walk even if it was low 90s and high humidity in central Ohio.
My sister is dealing with all the estate stuff, and for the second time we might have buyers for her house, the first set fell through. I have an empty spot in my heart, and I wish she was here to give me a hug. I was lucky to be 54, and have my Mom all these years, for that I am grateful.
hugs your loved ones as life is way too short at times. thanks for listening, Josie