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| Sat, 05-31-2008 - 10:06pm |
Hi - I posted here a couple of months ago. When I sat down and looked at my charts, I noticed I was only ovulating every other month. My mother, who has PCOS, had one ovary removed at 16 because of too many cysts twisted around her ovary, and went into emergency surgery five months ago and lost the other. I have a lot of the symptoms, and always sort of knew but didn't want to admit that it was so likely I had it.
So I got an appt with my best friend's family practictioner/OBGYN and waited the month. He was very kind, listened to all my concerns, agreed with my thoughts on having PCOS, discussed our next steps which will include metformin, and told me to see him a week after my ultrasound. So I did the blood work, a urine sample, and had to file paperwork to get the ultrasound because our hospital system out here is nuts.
Well, two weeks ago, while at school, I got very sick (nauseous, dizzy, etc) and then, three days ago, it came on me again with crippling strength so that I spent two hours curled up on the bathroom floor with the lights out during class. I vomited - which I NEVER do - and couldn't stand to keep my eyes open or stand. I've been sick like this two other times in my life, the first time I had my period (blacked out in a bathroom stall at school,) and when we had our miscarriage in January.
So I talk to my mother, who is very scared - she lives across the country - because she had similiar sickness before her emergency surgery. We pushed through and got our ultrasound. I've had a problem with a constant pressure in my pelvis, and the need to go to the bathroom very very frequently - which I expressed to the doctor. The act of holding my urine that full caused me incredible pain, until I was rocking back and forth and shaking in the waiting room. It made my lower pelvis ache terribly and made me begin to cramp. By the time they called me back and I laid down, I was crying uncontrollably because of the pain. I couldn't answer questions very well, because I couldn't think. (I have a high threshold for pain. I had ulcers as a teenager. I have never cried uncontrollably because of pain in front of strangers.) They let me empty my bladder a little, but I couldn't seem to get it together. It eased the worst of the pain, but it was still there. They didn't tell me anything - I heard them say something about my left ovary being too close to my uterus - and called my doctor to order another test. They let me empty my bladder, and then did a transvaginal or endovaginal, whatever it is when they insert the probe. She told me my bladder was still full, but I told her I always felt pressure, and didn't feel as if I needed to go again yet.
So now, my doctor is out of the area for a week and a half and I feel alone and scared. I have some people laughing at me and telling me that everything is okay, and some people making plans for when my ovaries will be taken out (even though I don't have any results from any tests!) and I'm caught in the middle.
Monday, when my doctor's office will get the ultrasound results, we're going to try and get them to transfer it to his back-up doctor in a sister clinic so that I can be seen ASAP. The pain in my lower pelvis/ovary area is getting more noticeable, and my last period - after 56 days of waiting - was 3 light days of spotting.
Does anyone have any words of wisdom or insight, even if it's scary, to share with me? If they have to do any procedure to sterlize me, I'll get over it - even though I'm 23 and have wanted children all my life - but I can't spend every waking minute worrying. Could it be more than PCOS? Uterine fibroids seem to fit the bill, but he would have felt those in the pap, right? I'm practically pulling my hair out here!










Hi elfstruck,
It sounds very much like you might have a cyst (or cysts).
I was told that if I had another bout of nausea to go to the ER - and I told them I have a sort of low-grade nausea that won't go away, and the pain is getting more persistent, but I feel like I'm falling through the cracks. (And I absolutely do not feel that the hospital would have kept me if something was really wrong from past experiences with my best friend.)
Tasha W-C