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| Sat, 07-12-2003 - 3:22pm |
I am having very bad moods. Really bad. Maybe I have been sounding good here but my kids would beg to differ. My doctor said these moods - more than moods, they last for hours - are directly related to the hormonal changes and this will be the most difficult time in my life. I have bipolar illness which is the reason for the prognosis. He is not trying to scare me or be negative, he is warning me. I have to be SO careful.
Right now maybe the tranq is kicking in. I would rather just sleep through this. I hate myself!!!! I mean, not myself but this time! My kids hightailed it to their chores - and the one is so upset, he worries I know, but he is also mad I'm sure. He said yesterday, "I hate hormones!" When I got through a spell (mostly) this afternoon, I told them how much I hate it too, and I apologized and they just hugged me. I am so very lucky. But, I am afraid as this goes on that they will want to do anything but hug me.
Oh man am I emotional right now, ladies. When it was bad this morning, I just wanted to lay down and avoid it, but I couldn't. I started cleaning the kitchen, and what a racket I made. The kids disappeared to their chores. I clattered dishes just as noisily as I could. I threw things across the kitchen. I did not break anything yet. But man talk about aggressive!!
I know Golly's going to say meditate. Not THEN I couldn't!!!!!!!!! See those exclamation marks, Golly? I think I will later, after I'm done spilling and reading about Wednesday's Wiggles and Thursday's collections. Which could be the rest of the day. Actually, it'll get my mind off myself. You are so GOOD for me!!!
It's not too hot in my room right now as the weather is cooler. Maybe I should just stay in here until my "hulkness" fades, in about 4 or 5 years.
Oh yeah, I have ordered a supplement which my doctor says DOES help some women. Usually medical people are so against natural things. So I believe him. NOT about to take hormones -- hmm, though, maybe I would be better off if I had the heart attack there is increased risk for, and just die. What do you think?????
I did get a shower and put a bunch of smelly lotions on, and feel a teensy bit feminine now.
HELP - Hugs, Golly, is there a board for crazy women???
Love,
Yogi

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And Yes, Stel does have a way of taking care of us.
Yogi - my hypo is hypo Thyroidism.....I am getting it under control now, but when out of control, I had deep depression, brain fog, lost half my hair, had horrible edema in legs, hands and face, frightening periods so heavy, and lots of other aches and pains too. Mine was so bad because I went un-diagnosed for probably years. But my point to you was that I felt like I was losing my grip...just so out of it....TILL I learned how other folks handle this situation. No Book or doctor visit has helped me like the gals who HAVE hypo have.
I think it just helps to know that we are not alone with our problems...others out there share experiences that help us to take better care. And like Stel, I think taking care of our health is a part of being "Fit and Healthy".
Hoping the rest of today is just great!!
xoxo, Tracy
Love,
Yogi
Think those slippers are a *medium*-the writing wore off long ago. ;) The bunny ears are about 3" tall though.
~Golly~
**So good to hear :)
~Hugs~
No apologies ever needed you know that ..
Loves ya hon :)
~Hugs~
I'm sorry for being a day late, but I just want you to know that I am in your corner! WE ARE IN YOUR CORNER!
We may be cyber friends, but we are your *REAL* friends!
>>>maybe I would be better off if I had the heart attack there is increased risk for, and just die. What do you think?????<<<
What do *I* think????? NO!!!! NO!!!! NO!!!! NO!!!! That would *NOT* be better!!
You come to us if you need to vent or talk! That would be **WAY BETTER!!**
We love you Yogi! Don't forget that!
Much love,
~DJ~
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