FOR MAE.....& other possible quitters
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| Tue, 09-02-2003 - 7:18pm |
THINK WOULD MIND MY SHARING. BET YOU CAN RELATE, {{{Mae}}}
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Twas the night before quitting, when all through the house,
Not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse.
The cigarettes were tossed in the trash can with care,
In hopes that relief soon would be there.
The matches, the lighters, the ashtrays were gone,
The quitmeter installed -- it wouldn't be long.
A bottle of Zyban and my arm tightly patched,
The door to tobacco seemed securely latched.
When inside my mind there arose such a clatter
I sprang from my bed to see what was the matter.
Away to the window I flew like a flash
Tore open the shutters and threw up the sash.
The moon o'er the lamppost across the street,
Gave luster of mid-day to the curbside fleet.
When, what to my wondering eyes should appear
But a pack of cigarettes and a bottle of beer.
And -- a little old ogre, so smelly and quick
I knew in a moment it must be that Nic.
More rapid than eagles the cravings they came
As he whistled and shouted and called my name.
"You know that you want me, you silly old goat!"
He tortured me through his yellow toothed throat.
"Come down here and light one 'cause no one will know
You'll feel so much better now say it ain't so!"
And then, in an instant, I saw myself weak
As I threw on my robe and began to seek
A way to the cigarettes without waking Ma
Hoping to break an unbreakable law.
I forgot the board, I forgot all those posts,
I didn't drink water, I thought of the ghosts
Of quits past and present and times I had failed
Had I thought ODAT I could have just bailed.
Nic was dressed as a friend all sweetness and light
And he knew how to seduce me that awful night.
A Marlboro Light he held tight in his teeth,
And the smoke encircled his head like a wreath.
He was gaunt and withered, a sorry old elf,
But I ignored those red flags, in spite of myself
A wink of his eye and a twist of his head
Soon gave me to know I had something to dread.
He spoke no more words, but went straight to his work
Putting matches and cigarettes in my hands, the jerk!
And laying his finger aside of his nose,
He gave me a wink and redoubled my woes.
He climbed in a hearse giving his keys a small shake
Thinking I'd not realize this would be such a mistake!
I heard him exclaim, e're he drove out of sight
"Just smoke one, it can't hurt you! You'll get through the night!"
And then something snapped inside of my brain,
And I yelled "I ain't climbing back on your train!"
I shouted and cursed and ranted and raved,
Then smiled and crushed his cigs -- and waved.
You see, Old Nic, I've got greater resolve
Your tobacco will NOT my problems solve
So tempt me tonight and tomorrow too,
But know that this one little smoker is through!
No more butts, no more smoke, no more being a slave
No more coffin nails for an early grave.
I'm free, free at last, and I feel so light,
So happy quitting to all, and to all a good night!
Nick

Awww Stel ..
What a great share!
I really like it ..
So glad you kept it too, whew!
Thanks for posting it here .. Sure to be enjoyed by many :)
~Hugs~
Ahhh I remember him and that great poem. Hope he's still smober. :)
~Golly
The dsl has been down ...and I went home early yesterday cuz I felt EXHAUSTED!!! The stupid patch fell off in one of the stalls...didn't even realize it. I Need to find something to keep it on when it's HOT...maybe some duct tape (;) as my roommate suggested (;)
Listen, get you some paper tape or cloth tape & use it over the patch. It helps when you sweat and the sticky comes off the patch. I promise they both work, and won't irritate your skin any worse than the patch does. And also, I found the clear seem to stay on
better for me, for whatever reason.
One good thing, thinking optimistically here, is that I also found that the smaller
the patch....when you're ready to step down.....the easier they stay on. Again, I
have no idea why, but that is just my personal experience.
Glad you made it thru Day 1...ODAT, girl!
* Stel *
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Mae, with all I have learned over these past 9 months, you have to do what feels
*right* for you. I can't remember what the package recommends...but IF you feel
more comfortable on the 21 mg., and are *nervous* about stepping down....then by
all means, do Step 1 for 30 days. It WILL NOT hurt you!! But I have *seen* on
other boards & even folks sifting in & out of *our* boards, that some people can do
the Step 1 for 3 weeks, then Step 2 for 2 weeks, then get off totally.
So....my advice, in a nutshell...is just to take it "one day at a time" for now.
If you buy too many 21 mgs, you can always cut them....hey, don't laugh, I do:)
Don't worry...we'll be here for ya Just make it thru Day 2 without that
patch sweatin' off this evening:)
xoxo stel
* Stel *
**Whatever it takes .. yes..
Duct tape, glue
Just no smoking for right now :)
~Hugs~
**Hey Mae ..
How about following the directions to a *T*
Stay on it as long as it suggests then step down perhaps when it says ..
JMHO of course
~Hugs~
"Mel on Wheels"
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