Well I slipped...but I didn't like it...
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Well I slipped...but I didn't like it...
| Fri, 09-05-2003 - 10:11am |
There were four cigs...I had two last night and two this morning...ick...but they're gone now...and you ladies were so right...I felt AWFUL...like I let myself down. The patch is back on and I WILL win this WAR!!!!
Much Love to all of you and I am so grateful that I have found you to help me thru this terrible fight.
xoxo Mae
ps...the stupid patch fell off again last night...as soon as I get in the heat it comes off...I tried to hold it...but ...well ...holding and driving don't really mix in high traffic.
I'm gonna try bandaids before I leave for work to hold it on til I get home...then vetwrap and DUCT TAPE!!!

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>>I had two last night and two this morning...ick...but they're gone now...and you ladies were so right...I felt AWFUL...like I let myself down.
**Glad they're all gone now and you're back on track Mae.
Just some thoughts on your patches. I found the best sticking ones to be Nicoderm. The less expensive ones didn't stick as well on me.
Are you using a creamy body wash or soap that might leave a film on your skin? You might try cleaning the patch area with a little rubbing alcohol and then let dry before putting one on. Another thought was I remember sitting on the sofa, watching tv with one hand firmly holding down the patch (esp. the corners) for almost up to a minute. :) Then rubbing the patch when *those thoughts* hit also helped keep it on I think.
Well, that's all I can think of other than your friend's duct tape idea, lol.
Have a good one today hon. :)
~Golly
There ya go, Mae:) Once you start *romancing* them, like Golly mentioned, it is AWFULLY hard to get them out of your mind. THAT'S why one of the #1 rules before quitting is to get rid of all cigs, cig butts, ashtrays...ANY thing that can tempt you.
But....I am NOT disappointed...NOT at all! You picked yourself up, slapped that patch back on, and are ready to go again. THAT'S all that matters now. It was just a 'slip'.
Smoking is an addiction. It takes determination, resolve & commitment to beat it.
I believe you have all three...you just need to dig deep...and you WILL win this WAR!!
xoxo Stel
* Stel *
I'm glad you are back on track and have your patch back on. Sometimes falling helps people KNOW how much they really want to quit. The smoke is not worth the mental agony for me.
Mae, were you a big smoker? How much did you normally smoke a day? My biggest smoke times were in the morning where I'd smoke maybe 3-5 with coffee. That was my biggest hurdle getting over What to DO with myself in the morning....I had to change Everything about that morning routine to get thru. Now, I'm back to being able to have coffee, but, there in the beginning, I just could not Risk sitting down for coffee. Are there changes you could make in your routine that might help get you thru?
Remember, just do today. Each hour. Strength Builds. It really does. I'll be honest- I would still like to smoke. BUT, Mae, I want to NOT SMOKE Even MORE than I want to smoke. So, I just don't. I've learned a lot about self control. I CAN control my desire to smoke. And I have. And you can too.
Darlin, please don't feel bad about your slip. Really. YOu are showing great character and strength by getting right back on the patch and going at it. Look at Mel...she had a slip and she is right back and is doing great. Never give up. We want Mae out riding horses and cleaning barns and hauling rocks for years to come!(vbg) Love ya hun.
~~tracy
>>Never give up. We want Mae out riding horses and cleaning barns and hauling rocks for years to come!(vbg) Love ya hun.
**Amen Tracy. :)
Somehow Mae, I see you on your mighty steed, helmet in place and jousting stick ready to do battle against ol' nic! A sport of kings! You go girl!
Humm, must be the discussions on the festivals. ;)
~Golly
I just KNOW I'll get through this with all of you helping me!!! Again, I am so very grateful to all of you.
I smoked a pack a day...(see that???? I said "smoked" without thinkin' (;)
I always had one to wake up, then mostly in the car going to work. I had two at my 10 am break, two at noon and two at 3 pm break, then in the car again. The only thing I'm doing differently is not MOVING from my office until 4 pm... I don't go outside unless I absolutely have to cause it's a trigger for me. At least for awhile anyways, there's a park I'd like to start walking around...but not yet (:0
On the weekends it was my treat to have iced mocha and cigs in the am and to get my rear in gear to work on the property.
Hey, those cigs that were the relax, comfort cigs - - like you with your iced mocha - - those are tough ones. I used to LOVE to sit out smoking on deck with Diet Coke getting ready to tackle my gardening projects. Mae, there is a trick to getting thru those times....for me, I just convinced myself of how WONDERFUL it was to be in the fresh air and how the smoke would wreck nature. Instead of smoking, I sat crossed legged and did deep breathing and thought positive thoughts about how healthy I was getting. Always thinking about the future and being very positive about how I am now in control of this wonderful life I have been blessed with. In other words, TALK yourself thru this - - do NOT under any circumstances get into an I feel sorry for myself mood - - I don't "get" to smoke anymore...That is soooooo just around the corner of the brain - - feeling like you are being Punished by not "getting" to smoke. Like I said before....right now, you just have to TRUST....because it's still so 'yesterday' I smoked. . . . you can actually Forget you quit!(lol)...gotta get those days under the belt.
You'll do it Mae. I've never Known a person who wanted to quit more. And before long you will be quit. Just Do IT - - whether you Like it or not- - whether it KILLS you - - because if you don't, it eventually will. This is a hard week to get thru - - but you will get thru it one way or another so why not get thru WITHOUT that smoke?
Love ya,
tracy
PS - - Make SURE you have a plan to get thru that weekend Mocha!!!!
"Mel on Wheels"
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"Mel on Wheels"
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Now, we gotta get Mae thru this next week or so and SHE will be doing great too!!
Love ya kiddo,
tracy
**OF COURSE YOU WILL, and it is WAR! Hey Mae, the others have all the "quit" advice and are living proof that it can be done no matter how hard it is. Keep at it and little slips are OK, but not too many hear!!!! Hey, I read the web site on quitting smoking etc. the other day. I don't know how often you read it but seems to me just re-reading it when you feel yourself giving in would be a great idea! Keep up the good work :) Hilary
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