Got FURIOUS last nite....
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Got FURIOUS last nite....
| Thu, 09-18-2003 - 8:27am |
After waiting almost 1 hour late for my sons football practice to let out..with food in the car -now stoned cold.I got mad.Finally my son comes out--he says they were waiting for a play-book.So we get in the car--then 1/2 way home he tells me he didnt get his game jersey.SOO..we go back I wait 20 MORE minutes.he comes out STILL w/ no jersey.He said the line was too longand he didnt care-he was hungry and he was just gonna quit the team. I went ballistic..I screamed that he go "back in there ang get his jersey'. He said "NO!"He doesnt play anyway-he is like 3rd string.He is tired of all the practice--he wants to be 1st string over-nite.My lord -its his first high school year!Then when we get home he tells me he needs a copy of his Birth certificate by the morning.Ugh.I had had it. so I have to go out and make a copy. I was exhausted from the nite prior,and pissed..anyway I smoked 2 cigs I got from my neighbor.I find I mostly slip when I am mad and over-tired. I dont feel good about it at all. But It was a slip--THATS ALL!!It did calm me down-temporarily..but thats NOT the way to do it.Gotta kick myself in the butt and just keep trying.Ok-I feel better..I needed to vent and confess!!My sins are forgiven??? xoxomel


HUGS
kim
What you said brought to mind something I remember from way back..maybe you should write this up in Magic Marker somewhere (hey, not being critical..applies to me as well!!!)
TRIGGERS....H.A.L.T. = don't let yourself *be* any of these 4 or Nic will BITE you!!!!
H = Hungry
A = Angry
L = Lonely
T = Tired
* stel *
* Stel *
Hi Mel,
Aww hon, wish you'd gotten that nap in. Your description of all that so brought back some of the fun stuff of those teen years. ;)
Now don't kick yourself (we're too fond of you ;))and hope your vent made you feel better. The main thing is to learn from it and prepare (think: deep breathing, slogans like "this too shall pass," having water and a straw/gum around) so next time you'll find a better route to ease the tension and anger.
Hope today is a much better day and onward to counting those nic free hours. :)
~Golly
Hugs, Cappy
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At that moment, I just felt like So what! I remember a time I actually had one in my hand and just pretended to smoke it - - I never lit it.
For ME - - when I did get really mad about something, I jumped on the treadmill and walked a mile a minute OR went outside and pruned bushes!! IN DECEMBER!!!
I can handle it pretty much now, but I still want one when I am really mad or upset about something. And that's when I do my "pretend" smoke - - sitting and doing the smoke-inhale thing-y WITHOUT a cig tho!
You'll get it - - I think you are incredible!! You have so much going on and you are in control MOST of the time!! I think you are great Mel!! You'll find what works for you.
ODAT,
tracy
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