I SMoked.....

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Registered: 03-27-2003
I SMoked.....
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Sat, 10-04-2003 - 10:48am

I smoked.  I took 3 puffs. 


I had been just going crazy.  It has been a constant obsession this thinking about smoking.  Nothing would get it out of my mind. . . even when I was working out all I wanted was a cig. 


So, this morning, I just decided to try a cigarette in the hopes that it would make me remember WHY I quit.  That is so stupid and Really Risky, , but it worked.  I do NOT recommend anyone ever try this.  It could easily backfire. . . but, it worked for me. 


We have had a dead pack of old Merits in the kitchen drawer since last Nov 8.  There are maybe 5 or 6 in there, I don't even know.  Anyhow, I've NEVER touched them other than once I took one out and just held it.  Well, I took them out to the sun-room and lit one.  I almost died choking....it was so horrible and it made me feel like I was going to be sick to my stomach.  I took 3 puffs total and crushed it out.  This was NOT any fun at ALL.   A big cloud of smoke was hanging ominously in the sunshine...it stunk....it was just downright disgusting. 


I am so happy.  This is what "I" needed to do.  I had been romancing that smoke for 11 months.  I think this worked for me because it was like I never smoked and had the same feeling that one has when they first start smoking - - feeling woozy and really not liking it....and I realized I had to Try to smoke before...this is NOT something that just comes naturally.  Smoking, or getting to LIKE smoking, is a job. 


SO, Not to worry. . . I am NOT a smoker any more.  Again, I think this ONLY worked because it has been almost 11 months Since I smoked.  Had I tried this say a month into a quit - - no way. . . and I do NOT advocate doing this as it was very risky. . . but I think it has really worked for me.  I can FINALLY throw away that old pack. 


ODAT~~tracy


 



 


 




Edited 10/4/2003 10:52:33 AM ET by stracy1

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iVillage Member
Registered: 03-27-2003
In reply to: stracy1
Sun, 10-05-2003 - 5:35pm

GET ME OFF THAT PEDESTAL!!!!!!!

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-26-2003
In reply to: stracy1
Sun, 10-05-2003 - 5:44pm

Wow Tracy~


I quit smoking like 4 years ago & I had that urge to start up again about a year ago. I bought a whole pack of cigs & tried to smoke one & I had the same reaction. It was *awful*!!!!


Way to go sister!! I'm glad that dose of reality worked for you...

Much love,
~DJ~
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iVillage Member
Registered: 03-27-2003
In reply to: stracy1
Sun, 10-05-2003 - 5:45pm

Aw Stel - - - at first I really felt like I let YOU down.

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Registered: 03-27-2003
In reply to: stracy1
Sun, 10-05-2003 - 5:50pm

Aw Thanks DJ.

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Registered: 03-26-2003
In reply to: stracy1
Sun, 10-05-2003 - 6:53pm

Thanks Tracy~


I was into the cool-college-kid-smoking & was never really *hooked*.......
I could make a pack of cigs last for about 2-3 weeks (and that was ultra lights)......


But I did get to a point when I was smoking regularly, but it never felt right & I was glad that I met DH when I did because he hated smoking & it made it that much easier for me to quit! ;o)


You go girl!!!

Much love,
~DJ~
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