Just mulling over the facts...
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Just mulling over the facts...
| Wed, 09-08-2004 - 8:10am |
I've never admitted I liked women until recently, because before my life was complicated enough... I've been attracted to many women (lol, you know, i used to think EVERYONE was bisexual to a certain extent, it's whether they admit it to others or not -- I'm still not sure about this, I still think this is true, lol... but nv about that) I've only really fallen in love with one woman. I think, having this happen is what finally made me come out to myself. I think I should like to be with a woman, I think I would like to raise kids with her, I'm not sure if I'm thinking and feeling this way because I'm envisioning it ALL happening with just this ONE girl that I like/love... yes, love. I don't know if I want to continue this way, without her. Still, there's every chance because I still prefer how a woman feels as opposed to a man (physically, emotionally) I have no close gay friends I can confide in, at this point who can tell me what it's like out there, to build a family with a woman, to hold a family together, esp. Mayb I'm thinking too far ahead, lol but I am at that age... I have an inkling it's a bit harder, and why do I keep feeling I'm going to be biting off more than I can chew... (((LOL, this is NOT a personal ad, btw!!!) Just wanting to talk...

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Perhaps it's because I live in a very liberal area of the country where it isn't as much of a big deal, I don't know.
I told my dad yesterday and he said, "I'm not surprised, I've always thought that about you," but he's the only one who wasn't surprised. He also said that he fully supports me in whatever I do. Other friends I have told (except for my best friends who aren't speaking to me because I'm an adulteress,) have all said, "Hey, whatever makes you happy,"
I have truly always been a very girly, ultra-feminine, straight woman who liked guys. This all came out of nowhere for me and blindsided me in a way I can't explain. Maybe I should have issues with it . . . Should I?
I guess bottom line for me is that I think that people need to live their lives in a way that is truth for them. If loving women is truth and passion in your life, why would anyone deny that? Ultimately when we deny who we are and what we want to make us happy, we're denying ourselves and everyone around us knowing and loving our authentic selves. We only have one shot at this lifetime, I know that I don't want to waste it pretending to be something or someone that I'm not.
Love yourself . . . you were born, and are, a perfect, perfect human being; just as you are. Don't try to be someone you're not.
Love and hugs,
Scarlet
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>>I guess bottom line for me is that I think that people need to live their lives in a way that is truth for them. If loving women is truth and passion in your life, why would anyone deny that? Ultimately when we deny who we are and what we want to make us happy, we're denying ourselves and everyone around us knowing and loving our authentic selves. We only have one shot at this lifetime, I know that I don't want to waste it pretending to be something or someone that I'm not. <<
I totally agree...when you believe in yourself and who you are and what makes you happy, then you can put the doubts behind you and move forward. I posted on another board that moving forward involves taking some risks, but they are well worth it and whatever the consequences are, you have the strength to deal with them.
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