Looks like I'm moving out . . .
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| Thu, 09-09-2004 - 2:15am |
He told me last night that he was going to have to take another position at work due to his inability to work at the proper level, would probably lose his company car (brand new bmw,) and take a significant pay cut, (-about 40K.) His therapist told him that like it or not, it is his responsibility to financially care for his family and that he couldn't flush his career down the drain (thank God for her . . . )
I'm sorry if I sound insensitive, but I just don't get it. I have supported his career and raised our children for eight years. I haven't built my career because we made a decision together to make the choice for me to be home with our three daughters. I can't go out tomorrow and get a job making what he makes because I sacrificed my career building for what we felt was best for our children.
Also . . . He had ten years to show me how much he loved and valued me and never did. I never felt like I was first in his life and never felt valued. He made me feel like I was just some very lucky girl to have him supporting me.
I am so sick of him and all of our friends feeling sorry for him and his terrible sorrow. Who was there for me all of those years when he treated me like crap? I found something in gf that I didn't know existed. I feel loved, connected, and valued for who I am and what I offer to the world.
Not even mentioning the fact that I now look back at my life and my relationship with women and say, oh . . . I get it now, I understand why I felt the way that I did; I must be a lesbian.
I don't know if I shared before, but I had never felt an attraction to another woman before, never even considered it. The night that I kissed gf for the first time, (now that's a good story . . . ) I felt like I was completely changed for the rest of my life.
I'm rambling. It's late. Just thought I would update.
Best to everyone, (my new understanding friends . . .)
Scarlet

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Scarlet,
My STBX was very much the same way, in thinking I wasnt entitled to anything because all I did for 14 years was stay home and raise our son.
*hugs ~ Caly
Good luck to you! Hopefully with your newfound independence you can reclaim your identity as Scarlet, the woman, in addition to Scarlet, the wife and mother. Sending big hugs as you make this move into a new life.
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(((((((Scarlet)))))))
Not to put too fine a point on it, but get a lawyer A.S.A.P.
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Pam is right Scarlett... seek the advice of a lawyer before moving out... you could seriously weaken your position by leaving the family home.
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As far as the order for support, I'm a little confused about this. We have seen a mediator to work out the details so far. We have an appointment on Monday with her again and I will address protecting myself in that way. I looked into hiring a private attorney and the retainer fee was $4,000.00. I don't have 4k lying around so I was hoping that we could work with the mediator for as long as possible.
On Tuesday, I opened up my own bank account and applied for my own Visa. We still have three joint accounts and I plan on going through info tomorrow and making copies of anything I think is important.
I know that if I file for divorce while in the house, I could have the judge order him out of the house, but I really don't want to go down that road. I know I may be being naive, but I really do think that we can work through this appropriately without getting hostile. If I did that; he would get hostile.
I will try to keep checking in with reality; I know this could get messy, I just don't want it to.
Scarlet
I plan on taking everything I want with me when I go.
Scarlett
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It sounds as though you have thought this through and are taking good steps to protect yourself and your children.
CL-Nursepam2000 aka
(((((( Scarlet ))))))
The sage ladies here gave me most of the same advice they gave you when I left my STBX ( I have no kids - that's the difference ). Getting a lawyer was the best advice I was given, and it has made my life so much easier.
Many tight, warm huggles of support to you and the kids,
I hope that it goes well. Maybe it will give you and g/f a chance to spend some quality time together as well.
Are you taking the kids? Sounds to me like he might be if he is keeping the house.
Maybe this will give you good quality time to decide what you will do as far as school and work etc.
I wish you all the luck.
Laurie
Ps. I do believe you have earned things. I know that a stay at home spouse has to sacrifice so much and has to start from scratch when out on their own.
Don't let anyone tell you that you do not deserve anything. DH would not have his school and career if you did not sacrifice yours.
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This is going to sound just a bit off topic, but what the heck, you're getting my two cents too...
My ex got really mean and vindictive as soon as he found a girlfriend. His machismo came back with a vengeance. He had to be sort of sneaky about it because he was
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