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| Mon, 10-04-2004 - 4:24pm |
My mother "outed" me to my very conservative uncle and aunt who live in PA. I wasn't planning on telling them anything except that dh and I are getting divorce and the reasons are personal. He told my mom that he wanted to fly out here and talk some sense into both of us; he says there is NO reason to EVER get a divorce if there are three children involved. Why does everyone think that I can just turn off my feelings and forget what I've experienced, is that even possible? Why would I want this? Do people do that? I don't know why everyone is so judgmental and unreasonable, I'm so over feeling like I have to try to explain over and over and over again that I'm in LOVE with someone else and I don't think that it's fair to expect my husband to just accept that and I can't and won't just stop loving her. Also my uncle, aunt, and mother are questioning how I could possibly, just overnight, become a lesbian. They don't believe me either.
I keep trying to tell myself that this is just a process and I will get through it.
Scarlett

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Thank you so much for your kindness and your advice. I guess the thing that is difficult for everyone, and even me sometimes is that I didn't have a horrible relationship with my husband, it just wasn't everything that I wanted. People saw a reasonably happy couple with a nice family and living the american dream. This so came out of nowhere for me in so many ways, but once it hit me, I knew I couldn't deny my feelings.
I'm scared to death about so many things:
I'm selling my beautiful house that I love. I'm sitting here right now on my back patio listening to the birds tweeting on a beautiful NW fall day thinking that in a short time I'll be living in an apartment with all of this behind me.
My children are losing their home and neighborhood and their life as they've always known it.
I haven't had a job in eight years and have no idea what I want to do to support myself and my children after the spousal support runs out.
I am desperately in love with a woman and I don't know how that will turn out because it's still so new and with so many complications. (It's been only three months today since that first fateful kiss.)
I just keep trying to tell myself that I have to keep moving forward, find myself and my strength and that ultimately I don't have a choice; I have to live to be true to myself and staying with my husband and this life is not being true to myself or to anyone else.
I thank you all so much for providing me with the love and support that I need right now. It's so great that the true human nature of love and compassion can come out here on the internet between total strangers and have such a profound affect on others. I'm really grateful.
Scarlett
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