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Big hugs Big thank-you's, Big awwwww
| Wed, 10-06-2004 - 6:30pm |
Hi all, yup it me, little old Canadain Sandy. I tell ya, forget all the amusment parks around Canada and the U.S, just come on my roller coaster for a thrill ride, no charge!!!! Ladies, I have had depression in the past ( as you all remember) and I tend to pull away, shut down all my emotions, all but pain. although while in the black space, I cant see, I let the once who love me suffer watching me at my lowest. This time it has been almost to the point where I lost control. I pulled away so far...........Lori has a long rope. The start of depression hit in the summer, but I was copeing safely. them without warning, in a matter of hours, I loss my children. I think if ( I know) if I had time to prosses it, if I knew they where going to live away from me, but as it happened the news shocked me, although I hid it for awhile, depression crippled me. How was I going to go to school full time, knowing I study at night when the kids are not there? My daughters bedroom I turned into an study room. What kind of mother was that? Just a few things that was adding to my guilt. I went through ( and still am) a idenity crisses.I can not change the past, not my abuse, not my abusive marrage, not the way I raised my children, not the fact that they chose to live with their father. I can however change the furture, even the present. And at present, I am enjoying school, ohhh how I know that social work is my fate, destiny.I enjoy my classmates, my instrcutor. and Its OKAY that I take time, all night for home-work/study and not have to worry about feeding, doing the mom thing. I am living again, my world has colour. ( hehe, Canadain spelling!!) Anywho to make a long post short, thanks for the hugs, wishes, caring, freindship. getting back to be warm and toasty, Sandy ( Lori's Sandy, forever)

Hey ladies,
(((((((((((Sandy)))))))))))))
Having battled depression myself and watching so many ladies fight it every day at the DS board here, this is one of the most beautiful posts I have ever read.
*hugs ~ Caly
Sandr
(((((( Sandy ))))))
As a person who is going through the Depression rollercoaster myself, your post brought tears to my eyes ( that's why I couldn't answer before ). They weren't sad tears at all, they were because you are showing me that there is a light at the end of this deep dark hole I am in. I love reading sucess stories over Depression, and I tip my hat too you
Robin
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(((((( Lori ))))))
You are a true and wonderful friend !!!
Hugs,
Robin
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i am so happy to see you post, i know we may never ever meet, but i truly feel like i know you and Lori, I care for you so much especially since yes we have alot of the same issues and you are dear to my heart, i think of you often and pray for you, i am so blessed to see you coming along and working hard, because i know Lori loves you with all that is within her and you both deserve to be happy and enjoy the love of one another,
these aren't just words but i hope you know they come from the heart of another survivor who wants to see you overcome these obstacles in your path, just want ya to know i am here cheering you on, even though you have no clue of it, please feel free to mail me still anytime ok at my yahoo, don't know if you still have the addy but here it is again just in case, ibtink61@yahoo.com
Bless You sweet Sandy ( and of course Lori) and keep hanging in it, it might be storming at times but the sun always comes out and even rays of sunshine in the midst of a storm
Love Ya kiddo,
Tink
Hey Robin, thanks so much for your kind words to me and to Sandy (although she'll no doubt thank you herself when she has a minute-lol!) It feels soooooo good to know we are a couple again!! In my heart, that never left us (being a couple) even when I briefly broke up with her recently due to feeling as if she'd closed the door on me and was only tolerating my presence. But it feels good to be back on the same track with BOTH of us working to become stronger and HEALTHY in every way!!