My heart is broken, literally...

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Registered: 06-24-2003
My heart is broken, literally...
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Fri, 10-08-2004 - 10:53pm
This must not be my year. I have not been feeling very good. I have been diagnosed with diabetes and needing surgery and a knee replacement.

This week I found out that I am in congestive heart failure. I have been at the V.A. Hospital and am now waiting to see if there is any other damage to my heart and what will happen when the echo pics of my heart come back.

They asked if I ever had a heart attack before. I said there were a couple of times when I said I thought I was having one but figured it was something/anything else but that because I am to young. They say it is possible to have had a heart attack in my passed.

I am only 44 years old and thinking what the heck???

Diabetes and heart problems are a problem on my mom's side of the family, but I am the only one in my immediate family with these problems. I thought I would be spared these health problems at least until I was way older.

I have to continue on water pills, execise, strict diet and wearing those lovely white hose up to my knees when just sitting around. (I'll bet victoria secret does not make any of those.) lol

I have to quit smoking and let me tell you this has been the toughest thing of all.

They said at least cut back to half for now while losing weight. So I am really trying hard.

I have been afraid to just sit around but to tired not too.

I feel like a ticking time bomb and lastnight I just finally broke down and cried.

G/f was strong for me and got me to stop and calm down.

I keep feeling like eventually she will leave me for a healthier more active person like I used to be.

She swears not.

I have been able to talk to some people living with "CHF" that is the lingo for congestive heart failure. SO in a way I feel like I have a chance to get my self together for some good quality years ahead.

I do not know what they will do about my surgeries now though.

Wow! I hope there will be no more bad health news for me. I am hoping to work through this and turn in to a more physically fit person so that I can live at least a while longer the 5-10 years. Alot of people with "CHF" do. I have heard.

G/F has been off work to be with me. She has to go back tomorrow then off on Sunday.

I am pretty scared right now. I feel like I am in some big trouble health wise.

Well that is the low down on me for now. I need to catch up with the board.

Hugs,

Laurie
Laurie

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Registered: 02-15-2004
Sun, 10-10-2004 - 10:19am
(((((((((((((Laurie))))))))))))))))

Do whatever they tell you to do, I know its hard but you can do it. I will keep you in my prayers, take care of yourself. You are too young to give up, be a fighter - and win! Love, hugs, smooches - Sandra

Sandr

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Registered: 10-08-2003
Mon, 10-11-2004 - 10:40pm

((((((((((((Laurie))))))))))))


I am so sorry to hear this. It must be so overwhelming and scary to deal with. I know that YOU can do it though, you can pull through this. I've missed seeing you around, I'm glad you're back, I just hate that it was this that kept you away - though I can totally understand.


Quitting smoking will be HARD, but you CAN do it. I was a 2 - 3 pack a day smoker for several years, with brief quits off and on during that time. I'm closing in on a year quit now, with

~C

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Registered: 06-24-2003
Mon, 10-11-2004 - 11:30pm
Thank you Courtney,

I think I am going to have to check out the kick butt board. I am having a hard time of it. I am scared as toss too. So whenever I do have a smoke I start feeling like I am doing some damage. I feel every heart beat sometimes especially now while I am still not sure what type of treatment I will need. I am supposed to find out mid week.

Sounds like you gave your girl a very romantic birthday.

Hugs to you all,

Laurie
Laurie

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Registered: 10-08-2003
Tue, 10-12-2004 - 8:36am

I highly recommend the board. They are great as a support system. You CAN do this. Its tough and its not fun, but its doable. Ya know, I quit for me, just for me - no one else, because I knew I needed too.

~C

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Registered: 09-16-2003
Tue, 10-12-2004 - 9:07am
((((((((((((Laurie))))))))))))))) So sorry to hear this. You are staying right on top of things and that's good. Your g/f is obviously very committed to seeing you through this and staying by your side. Sending lots of hugs and healing angels.
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