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| Mon, 10-18-2004 - 5:29pm |
I'm writting because I feel so lost... so alone but most of all so afraid that I have lost the one person who I love more then anyone else in this workd. She says she wants space I'm not sure she even loves me anymore. Here we are weeks away and she's gone. I want to wrap my arms around her and never let her go and tell her she can't leave because I don't want to face the world alone... last night was the first night I had to sleep without her, I didn't sleep I tossed and turned and cried, I wanted it to be like everynight when I go to sleep she is right there I wake up to her every morning and this time she wasnt' there.
I'm struggling with the fact that she just told me and our friends that she couldn't wait to call me her wife and now this. To make matters even worse I have a six year old son who adores her, he calls her mom as well and I don't know what to tell him he wanted to know why she wasn't there this morning..... and I don't have the answers. I hurt so bad and wish this was all just an awful dream...
-M

Hi there and welcome
My gut reaction of course says its perhaps a case of "pre committment" jitters and that all will be fine in a few days.
*hugs ~ Caly
well if you say she can be overly dramatic then this may just be part of that.
*hugs ~ Caly
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Hello M, welcome to Lesbian Life. I can't give any more suggetions that have already been given, so all I can do is say hold on.
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Hugs,
Sebastian
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I am not sure what your girlfriend is going through.
I sure don't have the answers, but I just want you to know we are here for you.
Your story just broke my heart.
I hope you won't rush into your commitment ceramony if/when she comes back.
Her words, "I don't know if I want to be with you anymore" make me see red flags.
I would certainly not commit myself to anyone who just said that. Who knows how long she will feel like she does want you again when or if she comes back.
It's okay for someone to not be sure if they want to be with someone, but I don't think this could have just come up in such a flash for her. I am guessing she has been thinking about it and this argument was her excuse for an out.
If she flip flops again take her back with caution.
Hugs and I do hope it gets worked out for you.
Laurie
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C >^. A .
I enjoy reading all the different views also. That is one of the things I like about this board.
I am not saying that I am right and someone else is wrong just that this is the way I see it. I could be way off. You and Caly also made a lot of sense. It could just be that you 2 are right.
I think I am just cautious about trusting someone who plays me like a yo-yo. My EX did that to me one time and I never trusted her again. It just did not feel the same after that.
I eventually left and now I am glad that I did.
Hugs Lee,
Laurie
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