Update... I'm still breathing for now...

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Update... I'm still breathing for now...
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Wed, 10-20-2004 - 10:59am
Thanks again for all your kind words... she finally agreed to talk to me last night and she told me it's over i begged her to hold me and i just cried i took the deepest breath of what she smelled like and hopefully that will stay with me i can't bear to lose it all.... all i could do was beg her not to leave my son and me we loved her to much and i told her that over and over.... I gave her back her ring that she bought for me that was the hardest things to i have ever done. She told me she would like to see my son one last time and then after that she'll never see him again. Now tell me how do you explain to a six year old that he has one last chance to see her and that is it... does she not get that this is tearing both of us apart inside. He misses his "other" mom so much and last night he said if he had magical powers he would bring her back for us. I lost it and cried. I still can't sleep but did finally manage to get a good 3 hours in--- i needed it.

I feel as if breathing today hurts and waking up tomorrow will be even more painful. To top it off i asked where she was staying at since we had been living together she said with the other girl... i held my tears in for that one but how it cut to the very depth of my soul.

Well she said her goodbye and i begged her not to leave us... i was a crying pitfall of emotions and i still am... i don't know what to do and i am just lucky to have made it home last night. I'm lost and i can't seem to pick up the pieces yet :(

-M

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Registered: 09-16-2003
Wed, 10-20-2004 - 11:13am

(((((((((((((M)))))))))))))))


I haven't had a chance to welcome you to the board yet. It's good to have you here, and I'm so sorry for the pain you are experiencing. I don't really have any advice, just hugs of support. I can't imagine how hard it must be for you and your DS to face this.

Ting

Ting 

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Registered: 06-24-2003
Wed, 10-20-2004 - 11:40am
Awwwwwww baby, I wish I could take all your pain away. You do have something more important to live for and that is your son.
I do know your pain, I was totaly crushed by a woman who cheated on me and left like that. I cried myself sick and thought that I would never love again. The truth is, I can't even remember what her last name is today. It was like 10 years ago. But I do know this, she cheated on all of her girlfriends that I knew about at the time. Some people just are not ready for the actual commitment. I don't think it makes them bad unless they lead other people to believe they are the only one. Then they are setting the other person up for the biggest heartache.
I know that you will one day find the one who is right for you and your son. It feels like your heart is breaking now, but think of the future and think of the past with your now Ex and all the negative things and hurts that she has put you through. Was it fair to you or your son? Is that really what you want in a life long relationship?
Sometimes when we get left behind we can only remember the good things about the relationship and think about what we will miss. I have learned to also look at the bad things and why I am better off not being in this relationship.
Big hugs,
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Registered: 02-15-2004
Wed, 10-20-2004 - 11:41am



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Registered: 09-10-2004
Wed, 10-20-2004 - 12:23pm

(((((( Huge Hugs ))))))


I wish you and DS peace,


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Registered: 10-17-2003
Wed, 10-20-2004 - 12:31pm
{{{{{{{{{{{{{ M & Son }}}}}}}}}}}}}

thinking of you and praying your heart is somehow comforted...

that somehow you would know that you are better off than to be hurt by

someone so cold and callous and not at all considerate of you and your precious son

so sorry for the pain you are feeling, but glad you are here reaching out ... because we really do care,

caring for you,

~~~Tink~~~

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Registered: 09-29-2003
Wed, 10-20-2004 - 6:51pm
Oh My Goodness!(((((((((M)))))))))..I am like so totally {{{feeling your pain}}}...I can't believe she

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