It hurts to breathe still.....
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| Thu, 10-21-2004 - 11:53am |
thanks ladies for all your kind words that you have offered over the last few days. I'm still here and breathing although i can't tell you how hard that seemingly little thing of breathing is so hard to do.
I'm trying not to think about us but i really can't help it, i thought she would at least call and see if we are okay... we are not is what i want to scream at her, my life is not okay you have taken away my last breath and my soul and i am aching just to hold you and breathe the smell of you in. i know she isn't thinking about us and that doesn't make it any easier... i know she is in the other womens arms and bed and that still doesn't make it any easier either.... it's like i know my reality and yet i can't deal with it.
I've started taking some steps... i opened a new checking acct. in just my name. I continued her car insurance till the end of Novemeber on my policy then it will drop off. I need to cancel my cell phone it's in her name and pay the early cancelation fee soon. These are the steps i am taking. i can't bare to take down the pictures of us at home... i just cant do it. I'm trying to do it.
Ahh the lessons we must learn in life somehow i will it through it with my held high again one day with the lessons learned. I guess i would rather know what it is like to love then to never have loved.
I'm having a hard time because i have always been there for her and she's not there for me and it's tearing me apart :(
thanks for your kind words,
M
Thanks for listening and just know your kind post do help me ease some of the pain but i keep going through i keep being sad then angry then lost and scared.

"I need to cancel my cell phone it's in her name and pay the early cancelation fee soon."
for your information...you can simply change your phone into your name. You need to pick up a form from your provider...and you BOTH will need to sign it (you in front of a Notary)...the cost is alot less than early cancellation fees (mine was $18.00) and you keep your number
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Robin
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{{{{{{{{{{mbabym}}}}}}}}}}. You're doing the right things for yourself, believe me the feelings that you're going through are normal. I really can't say enough that I know what your going through, but you will get through this. Continue to shed your tears, they're very healing. You're going to go through all of the things the way that you're supposed to. Just keep coming back here and vent,or cry, we're here to "listen to" and help support you, ok?
Hugs,
Sebastian
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C >^. A .
Take the pics down so they won't make you sad. If you have to, put them in a bag or box for now until you can get rid of them or look at them without feeling down.
Don't listen to sad music, (can you tell I have been through this before?)
everytime she pops into your head, which is probably all the time, tell yourself how she has done a big favore for you so that you will not waste anymore of your time on someone who cheats on you.
Someday when the right one comes along you will be single and available. Come here and write and vent whenever you need to or e-mail someone didoangst@aol.com.
You and ds do not deserve this/that kind of emotional yo-yo treatment. You deserve much better than what she can give you.
IMHO, the other woman just helped you clean house and get rid of the trash.
She crossed a line of trust more than once she would probably do it again especialy if she thought you will always be there to run back to when her other relationship/s run dry.
I hope that your pain eases soon and that you will see that you are better off without her now so is ds.
I wish I could make your pain go away.
Hugs,
Laurie
P.S. Life is to short to waste on people who make you miserable.
Don't settle for less than what you deserve which is the best.
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Laurie has got all the right words, so I'm just gonna nod and say uh huh, uh huh and point to her, okay? That plus, I'm throwing lots of hugs your way. Keep your head up baby, you aren't alone.
*hugs* ~ Nony