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Registered: 01-15-2004
I'm here
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Fri, 10-22-2004 - 12:20pm

Hi all, well today is a day and i'm still breathing, last night was an okay night. She came over yesterday when i wasn't home and grabbed some of her things. she had the nerve to take a photo of just her.. my favorite one. i imagine to give to the new girl. does she really have to twist the knife any futher in my heart really? but i made it through the night and i'm still here although i must confess.... my son stayed the night at his fathers house i must praise for being a wonderful person to me right now he's understands my heartache and is being supportive, well so i went out and met up with this girl... i know it's way to soon and her girlfriend cheated on her as well and so we just met for drinks and a session to let it all out since we are going through the same thing but i must say i enjoyed myself!!!!!! we talked, laughed, and enjoyed each other's company and stayed until closing and it was fun i actually had FUN! Until i got home alone but at least i _know_ i can have fun.

I did talk to her in the middle of the night... i couldn't sleep and calling her got the best of me. I told that i loved her and needed her and she told me as plain as day it was over. why i can't seem to get that through my thick skull i will never know but i must do it and must do it soon.

My sweet little boy is still adjusting the best way that he can, he's sad but i'm offering lots of love and hugs and i might try taking him to the toy store this weekend and let him pick something out for himself... although i did buy a new pair of shoes and that didn't make me happier but oh well.

Thanks for your kind words and talking with you does help so much,
Michelle

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Registered: 06-24-2003
In reply to: mbabym
Fri, 10-22-2004 - 12:36pm
Hi Michele,
I am glad to hear that you were able to get out and have some fun.
I am also glad that you can come here and feel a little better to.
Keep us posted. Try not to cave in to calling her. Write here instead.
Take care,
Hugs,
Laurie
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Registered: 02-15-2004
In reply to: mbabym
Fri, 10-22-2004 - 2:40pm

Michelle, just hold on. It's normal to feel like you're feeling. Be careful about meeting with strange women while you're emotionally upset, it too tempting to just ignore your feelings and to cover them up. Just keep taking care of yourself and your son.

Just keep coming back to share and vent.

Hugs!

 


Hugs,


Sebastian


 


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Registered: 02-15-2004
In reply to: mbabym
Fri, 10-22-2004 - 4:17pm
Michelle, I have been away from the board for almost 2 weeks, but I read your posts and I want to tell you that it will get easier. I am glad you went out and had a little fun, but please don't reverse that progress by calling your ex once you get home. I am sorry she is hurting you, I have been where you are. It's very painful, and really hurts the old self esteem - but I promise you that there is a reason for everything and there must be a better person for you out there somewhere. I am sorry sweetie! If you feel like calling her again, take Laurie's advice and come here and post instead. Sandra

Sandr

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Registered: 09-29-2003
In reply to: mbabym
Sat, 10-23-2004 - 12:05am
Ohhh ((((Michelle))) I so very much

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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: mbabym
Sat, 10-23-2004 - 1:32am
Hi Michelle....well we haven't talked and well I haven't really been around the board as much as I used to.....I know there is no comfort for you really but we all have been there???I have had a few serious relationships and well all my girlfriends except for one has cheated on me.....you are gonna slip back,you are going to call her,and then kick yourself for it.......certain things we all do,even when we weren't so serious about someone but it's just an ego thing,and well dear you know if she cheated,she'll do it again...I am sorry but cheating is no accident and well all I can say is for me,it's the one unforgiveable act.......no one deserves to be cheated on for any reason and well I just always say I am better then that,deserve better and will find her someday.....'everything happens for a reason'??or at least I like to think so.....

If you ever need to talk my addy is stillbuggin30@yahoo.com and best of luck to you,it will get better......Take care and have a good weekend,Jo

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Registered: 06-24-2003
In reply to: mbabym
Sat, 10-23-2004 - 3:04am
Hi Michelle,

I just thought I would check in and see how you are doing.

Maybe you could post an update?

Thinking of you and hoping your pain is easing a bit.

Hugs,

Laurie
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Registered: 04-13-2002
In reply to: mbabym
Sat, 10-23-2004 - 11:19am

Hi Michelle,