Rolling into the heavy holidays alone...

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Rolling into the heavy holidays alone...
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Tue, 11-23-2004 - 10:29pm
As of Thanksgiving have been alone for a little over a year. Wondering where my life is going. I'm picturing old school marm dying a slow lonely life. I work and come home to my only grandchild who makes me laugh every day because she is only two. But I do miss the attention and luv from another. Hoping for a digital camera for xmas and the strength to cope with my lonely life. I know, I know, time will tell but as everyone says, the holidays bring out the worst of us all. Hoping you all are happy for the holidays. I myself will be trying to survive the loneliness. Sorry to bring everyone down.
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Tue, 11-23-2004 - 10:44pm

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Registered: 03-19-2003
Tue, 11-23-2004 - 10:58pm

(((((((Buterfli)))))))


>I'm picturing old school marm dying a slow lonely life.


My goodness!

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Registered: 10-01-2003
Wed, 11-24-2004 - 5:36am

Don't be sorry buterfli.. holidays are hard on everybody in some respect or another. I hope you're spending time with your friends. I know it's not the same as having a lover or partner.. but even being with your friends involves sharing and caring for eachother.


Keep your chin up honey ~~
*hugs*

 

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Registered: 05-25-2004
Wed, 11-24-2004 - 7:03am

I feel your pain sister! I've been alone too long. I hate the holidays. But, this year for my sake, I'm trying to adopt a new attitude. When it comes down to it, I still get a bit nervous meeting family at Thanksgiving and Xmas. I end up being the only one without someone. You know, everyone brings their wife, husband, boyfriend, or girlfriend.

Last night, I had a dream about Lucy. I was crying so hard begging her to come back. The dream was so real. I know that you don't know who Lucy is and that is okay. I don't have time to explain. I think that I do a really good job at staying busy and covering up. But, when push comes to shove, regardless of how busy I am, my body decided I wasn't escaping the pain. So, I had dream. In other words, it surfaces eventually.

But, probably like you, I get tired of hearing people tell me someone's out there for me. I get tired of rejection after rejection. And, I really got tired of this last lady I met on PlanetOut. She and I were on two different planets. I couldn't figure her out to save my life! She got peeved because I asked her to be friends. She emailed me emotional notes, and I hadn't known the woman 3 weeks yet! I'm thinking if I could spend more time around her, she would have turned me straight! LOL I became afraid to check my email. I didn't know what she was going to come up with next. She had already threatened to throw her keyboard out the window. Perhaps she put a bullet in her CPU. LOL

Anyway, as lonely as lonley can be, one thing is for sure- being alone is better than being in a bad relationship. So, maybe you and I will get lucky next year? :)

Hugs!

rj :)

rj

Franco Harris of the Pittsburgh Steelers in 197

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Wed, 11-24-2004 - 6:03pm

Something I didn't have time to type this morning...

I think you should just treat yourself this holiday! That's what I'm going to do. There's this movie that is going to debut in December. I think the title is Closer. It stars Julia Roberts and Jude Law. From the previews, it looks like it will be good. Normally, I wouldn't dare go to a movie by myself. But, I don't have any to go with. So, I'm going to see that movie if the reviews are decent. I say, "What the heck!"

Hugs,

rj :)

rj

Franco Harris of the Pittsburgh Steelers in 197

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Thu, 11-25-2004 - 12:10am
Thank u. This was very informative and I do understand. It is so hard to meet someone and when we think we have, something else comes up. The only good thing I see out of all this, is it is not the repetition of the male ego. It is just strange people. Have a delema which I will talk about in a separate post.