MY STORY- kinda long sorry

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MY STORY- kinda long sorry
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Sun, 12-05-2004 - 11:46am
I have a reason for sharing which i will get to at the end... Ok, my little brother, big bro (1/2) and I lived with my mom and dad till I was almost 5 when they got a divorce. My dad cheated on my mom with my cousin at a party and my mom walked in. My little bro and I then lived with my dad for a little while while I went to kindergarten. Then my dad and mom decided that the "best" for little bro and I would be to live with Dad's parents in a teeny little town in nowhere-- big bro had diff dad and stayed with mom. My dad was in and out of jails and prisons all my childhood and my mom just never wanted to come see us. I got in a fight with my Nannie when I was 16 over my grades (I was really depressed and didnt really care about school). a few days after the fight, I called my mom and asked her to come get me from school and I was running away. I packed my bags in the middle of the night and threw them in the woods next to my house for my friend to pick up b/4 she went to school cause I was grounded from my car. Well, I did run away and I didnt talk to them for a long time. I eventually started talking to them at Holiday time but never really "talked"to them till my Papa got lung cancer 2 years ago. My dad and other family members decided it best that I not tell my G-P's about my sexuality...Dont know what they told them about me and Brandi but I was NOT to "upset" them! Any way, I finally told my papa that I was sorry for all the pain I caused by leaving the way I did and for not talking to them about what was going on in my life and we cried together when Jasmine was 4 days old. He held her and cried. I never told him how she came about because of the other family members wishes but he died when she was 2 weeks old. I am glad that I talked to him and told him I love him and thank you for keeping me. I always resented them for keeping me away from my mom when I was young. Now I realize that I had it all, people that loved me and cared for me and a house and food and whatever I needed. If I had been with my mom, i would probably not even have teeth, much less food or a warm house! Here is to my point... Last night my cousin had her 8th birthday party and my Nannie was there- we were very close when I was growing up- and I talked to her about all kinds of things. She held Jasmine all night. I never took Jeremy to see her when he was a baby cause I thought she wouldnt be interested in him cause I had hurt her. now I see I was wrong and I may have ruined their relationship by that. Any way, last year, I put in our Thanksgiving wish box that I wished for a baby girl and well yall know I have her... I never told Nannie how I got prego with her and I assumed no one else had or even told her what Brandi and I are to each other.... BOY was I wrong! My aunt took her home last night along with a friend she had with her (another older lady that had taken to Jeremy all night) and on the way she had asked about Jeremy and jasmine and who they belong to... well, Nannie very proudly told her about the insemination and Brandi's brother being the donor and us being partners and all that. I didnt even know she knew or admitted it. I always thought she was gay. I even asked her a long time ago. she just has a few of the common tendencies... Kinda funny, she was talking to Brandi last night and she said " i have always wanted a wife". I almost dies when she said that. I couldnt believe my ears! she never explained herself but after my aunt telling me about what she told Mary-the lady with her- I dont know... I have never felt so accepted in my whole entire life. I feel like my life is truely complete! I am so glad I dont have to try to hide myself from the person that means the most to me. I am so glad she was there! I invited her to a early Christmas dinner we are having with Brandi's Mom, Dad and Brother at my house and she is coming! They have never met But I think it is time! We have been together for 5 years, married almost 4! well, sorry this is so long but I wanted to share.
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Sun, 12-05-2004 - 12:13pm

{{{{{{{Mandi Jewell}}}}}}}


What a wonderful and poignant story.

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Sun, 12-05-2004 - 12:26pm


Thank you for sharing your story, now I know you a little bit better.

Thanks and hugs!

Gigi

 


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Sebastian


 


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Sun, 12-05-2004 - 3:12pm
Wow, Mandi,
What a sweet story. It should be made in to a movie.
A new Christmas story or something.
Very heart warming.
Hugs,
Laurie

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Sun, 12-05-2004 - 4:25pm
That was a wonderful story!

*hugs ~ Caly

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Sun, 12-05-2004 - 6:47pm

I'm thrilled that things have worked out for you and that you are finding peace and contentment in your life, and with your loved ones to boot!

*hugs*

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Sun, 12-05-2004 - 7:36pm
Wow (((((mandi)))).. The things or stories we all have huh?.. That was so heartwarming and I am glad you have connected with her your nannie again and glad also you shared with your grandfather how you felt while you could..
Thanks for sharing that..
((((((Hugs)))))"CAT"

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Mon, 12-06-2004 - 9:17am
Yeah, a movie would be cool till I added the part where I was adopted. My lil' bro was a jr but had to change his name so my nannie wouldnt have 2 sons w/the same name... So, that made my dad my brother and my mom my ex-sis-in-law and my aunts my sisters! I loved telling people that when I was growing up! I still call my aunts my sisters but I could never bring myself to call my dad my bro- too strange for even me! Speaking of my dad, I talked to him yesterday and he isnt doing so well. he is an alchoholic- well a drunk since he doesnt go to meetings. he was drinking shots at 7am and wasted by 10. I feel like I should go babysit him. He is a barber and owns his own shop and was doing very well the past 7 years but since his dad died he has been getting worse and not going to work. he is even borrowing money from my nannie to pay his 300. house pmnt and shop pmnt. grrrr, sorry- my house payment is much more and I know all my other bills are way more and we make less than he does but we get ours paid and still have a little for us! why must I have to worry about my dad and my lil' bro? they are the same, both drunkasses that dont want to try. sometimes I wonder who the parents are! God was definitly watching out for me growing up!
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Mon, 12-06-2004 - 10:19am

(((((Mandi)))))


I know you feel responsible for them.