Took My Mind off it..

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Registered: 09-29-2003
Took My Mind off it..
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Wed, 12-08-2004 - 12:19am
For awhile..
Hi all.. Yeah, I had my mind on my Son, most of this evening.. Went to bed thinking about him last night.. My (((((((youngest))))))..
Was beating myself up a bit for awhile tonight, cause I wanted so bad to call and tell him I was thinking of him and that I did not forget his birthday.. But I couldn't dial the, or punch in,( cause we don't dial any more do we?) numbers.. Why? Cause I knew or pretty much knew inside myself that ex would answer and I just **Sigh** don't like going through the plays, the motions with him.. Sad isn't it?.. I am glad I came and read and responded to some posts as it helps get my mind off for awhile.. Probably will go to bed later thinking again about it.. Perhaps tomorrow,I'll call. Gonna be going tomorrow and Thursday looking for things for his birthday, but will mail it Thursday most likely as I hear the weather will be messy again over the weekend as was the last two days here..So if I mail it out Thursday he'll have it for Friday.. His Birthday is Saturday..
I kinda was hopeing he was feeling me telepathicaly(spelling?)knowing I was thinking of him and Love him..Perhaps he was...
Okay well back to reading and posting and checking out other things..
((((Hugs))))"CAT"

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Registered: 09-29-2003
Wed, 12-08-2004 - 11:57pm
Yeah ((((((((((beth)))))))))))))) Your Right Hon..
Hang In There.. I understand...
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Registered: 07-24-2003
Thu, 12-09-2004 - 9:56am
Well, I wrote "my story" in another post. basically, my mom couldnt afford to keep me and my younger brother and my dad couldnt stay out of jail or off drugs so my dad's parents adopted us when I was 5. I remember my mom calling and telling me she will come see me and never doing so. I really dont know the true story, my g-parents and my parents all had different stories. when I was 16, I got in a fight with my Nannie and decided to run away. It was a dumb descision but I had my mom pick me up from school and never went back. my situation is much different I am sure but in the eyes of a kid- if you dont have your mom, you dont have you mom and that is all you think about! you dont think of why or like me I made up reasons that were not true. when I went to live with her however, I realized that I had a good life where I was. I love my mom but she has made some really bad decisions and those were her and our concequences- I really dont know how to spell that word! just make sure he knows you love and care for him. well, I just read what I wrote, I hope I dont upset you. that isnt what I want. please know that. hope you have a great day!
Mandi
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Registered: 06-24-2003
Thu, 12-09-2004 - 7:40pm
Hi rj,
I am doing pretty good, thank you for asking.
How are you? I hope all is well with you.
I still plan to come swoop down and rescue you from that hole you are living in.
Then drop you in to a GLBT Hub.
Take care.
Hugs
Laurie

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Registered: 06-24-2003
Thu, 12-09-2004 - 7:51pm
Hi Beth,
Don't think I have forgotten you. I think I will get to things after the holidays. I have alot of work to do and then traveling. So after the first of the year I will focus on calling people in Houston and getting a bennefit together for you. Please do not lose hope.
Hugs,
Laurie

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http://homepage.mac.com/lauriedav/PhotoAlbum1.html http://hometown.aol.com/didoangst/myhomepage/photo.html
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Registered: 06-24-2003
Thu, 12-09-2004 - 8:02pm
My little kitty cat...
I wish I could make it all better.
I try to practice the comma use too. Sometimes I just think that's what editors are for.
Those whacky comma's!
I hope you are feeling some better. I think maybe you will be feeling low until after the b-day though.
Can they ever come stay with you or is it a problem.
Hugs,
Laurie
Laurie

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http://homepage.mac.com/lauriedav/PhotoAlbum1.html http://hometown.aol.com/didoangst/myhomepage/photo.html
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Registered: 09-29-2003
Thu, 12-09-2004 - 9:30pm
Hey Mandi.. Thanks for sharing that and no, you did not upset me.. Although the part about how kids not having their Mom and thats what they think about, did kinda jerk at me,

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Thu, 12-09-2004 - 10:19pm
I'm sorry you are feeling so out of touch. My daughter's b'day is the 11th, same as your son's. She will be 29. If it were me, I would pick up the phone and go thru the crap just to reach my son and let him know u did not forget. A voice is better than nothing. I'm hoping you will get past the ex and talk with your son. Good luck! I know it is easier said than done but in this case I think it is worth it.
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Registered: 09-29-2003
Thu, 12-09-2004 - 10:34pm

Thanks Buterfli.. I did do that tonight.. I called.. I actually im-ed with ex for a


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Registered: 03-19-2003
Fri, 12-10-2004 - 8:03pm

(((((((Cat)))))))

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Registered: 04-13-2002
Sat, 12-11-2004 - 7:51am

Hi Cat,