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Reality Check
| Sun, 12-19-2004 - 12:51pm |
Ahhhhhhh my friends,
sooo much is going on in my life right now, and soon I promise to share more of it with you. But for now just know that all is as Ok as it can be and I'm learning what inner strength really means.
One of the things I am wrestling with right now though is the reality of what the rest of my life is going to be like. Living ones life in the persecuted minority is not something I gave much thought too because of my luck in finding myself a lesbian in VT when I first came out.


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Sending you out big bigger biggest *hugs*
Thank you for sharing with us, I am one who relishes the writings that come from one's soul.
Hang in there Caly. You've an ability that will help guide you through.
I love your peoms Caly - of course I can relate to them perfectly. I understand your pain. I was just "let go" from a new job for my honesty. So what do we do? Keep quiet about our lives, the lives we are so proud of, or tell whoever we want and be persecuted constantly?
It was easier to be straight, but I will never look back. I am grateful I am the way that I am. I have never been happier than I am when I am true to myself.
I will not allow my happiness to depend on the permission of someone else.
Hugs, Sandra
Sandr
(((((((Caly)))))))
Wonderful poems.
CL-Nursepam2000 aka
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CL-Nursepam2000 aka
*hugs ~ Caly
*hugs ~ Caly
WOW Sandra!
I thought most jobs could no longer fire someone on the basis of sexual orientation?
*hugs ~ Caly
Thank you my friend!
Your words are always so special to me.
*hugs ~ Caly
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Big hugs my friend. You've always been very supportive of me when I've came here and have been hurting.
I'll share something with you. Friday, I took a half day vacation. I grabbed some lunch and then drove north up to a community college where I took two transfer classes. I was dropping off a present I had purchased for a very helpful and caring instructor I got to know there. On my way back to the city, I needed to stop in at WalMart for some items. I was rather pushed for time. I knew that I could get there faster by taking the interstate.
In case you don't know, I have terrible panic attacks when driving on interstates. I don't know why. I can drive anywhere else for long periods of time fine. But, get me on an interstate and I sweat bullets.
I was scared. So scared that if I thought crying would have made it better, I would have cried. Instead of taking a back road and making the traveling time longer, I told myself that I must take the interstate. I did. My heart began beating..faster....faster. The traffic was heavy going onto the loop ramp. I could feel myself getting dizzy. I made it to the on ramp. I felt so scared.
All I wanted to do was stop and scream. I felt like a warrior alone away from his comrades and faced with a thousand swords coming at me. I felt like I would pass out. At first, I thought...maybe you should take the next available exit and take a back road to WalMart. Then, I told myself..."NO, you can't do that! You can't let this win." I was so scared I prayed silently to God. I said, "God please be with me."
It took 15 minutes while shopping in Wally World for my hands to stop shaking. I had become so frightened that I had the shakes and was sweating.
You are probably wondering why I'm telling you all this. Well, one because you've always taken the time to cheer me up when I've been down. But, another reason is that I want you to know that some things in life are worth fighting for (not that you don't already know that). Sometimes, you gotta fight to get to the exit you need to take and not settle for an exit that only will lead you to a back road.
Your happiness is worth fighting for. So, don't stop fighting. And, don't face the swords alone. Come here when you need a hug.
{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}
rj
Franco Harris of the Pittsburgh Steelers in 197
Now you've done it Rj hehe You made me cry
*hugs ~ Caly
As Elvis put it.. Whole Lotta shakein<(spelling) going on...
(((((Hugs))))"CAT"
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