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Time to Step Down...
| Sun, 12-26-2004 - 5:27pm |
Dear Lesbian Life Friends,
The time has come for me to step down as a community leader for iVillage. This is not a sudden decision.

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Hi Pam,
Pam,
It has taken me a while to reply to your goodbye post. I don't like goodbyes. And, who knows, you may stop in again sometime. But, I told myself I couldn't post again until I could do it without crying.
I don't really know how to explain what I'm feeling right now. I feel a great sadness. A great loss. I've cried. I don't know how I let myself become so involved emotionally.
When I first came to this board, I was riddled with guilt. The feelings I had for Lucy and expressing them left me very guilty because she would not forgive me. I had apologized to her for upsetting her when I told her how I felt about her. She never accepted my apology. She treated me like a plague. My interaction with you somehow cured that. I don't have any guilt now. I will always care about Lucy. And, I keep her close in mind due to the fact I plan on writing a book with her as a main character someday soon. But, it is you that led me away from the sorrow of guilt. I want to thank you for that.
I've always typed that I want the best for you. I'm glad that you are pursuing changes to better your life. I too sometimes wondered why you didn't have an interest in me. It is obvious that I deeply cared for you and wanted to pursue a possible relationship. But, I guess it is quite easily explained. I'm 33 years old and you are 50 something. I'm in NC and you are in CA. I'm just now embarking on an Associate's degree and you are a professionally licensed nurse. Besides, you are one or two years older than my mom- she would have had a cow over our relationship. LOL I had to throw some humor in there...I felt tears coming.
Pam- you are lovely. You deserve someone to love and take care of you. I will always remember you. And, now Pacific Time has been renamed to Pam Time. :) This East Coast grrl was crazy about you. God Bless you always Pam. I love you.
rj
rj
Franco Harris of the Pittsburgh Steelers in 197
I will miss you as our leader. I hope you are still going to be with us as a member.
I better go back and read as I am behind on the board. I am not sure what all is going on in your life right now but I hope it is good.
I hope to see you around on the board soon.
Hugs and kisses,
My web pages
http://homepage.mac.com/lauriedav/PhotoAlbum1.html http://hometown.aol.com/didoangst/myhomepage/photo.html
My web pages
http://homepage.mac.com/lauriedav/PhotoAlbum1.html http://hometown.aol.com/didoangst/myhomepage/photo.html
Pam, thank you for your time, energy.... and patience.
Wishing you good things in 2005!
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