Just a thought. feelings..from past..

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Just a thought. feelings..from past..
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Thu, 01-06-2005 - 4:54pm
Sitting here and listening to a cd and hear a song from years ago..
Have you ever heard a song that you felt to the depths of your heart when you were starting a relationship,with a now ex?.. The song makes you remember those feelings you had then.. Those feelings of what you really believed then to be real..The feelings obviously having to had been your fantasy of a dream that was happening but really just that a fantasy..Playing that song over and over and

 C  >^. A .

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Fri, 01-07-2005 - 5:25am

{{{{{{{{{{ Laurie }}}}}}}}}}}

 

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Fri, 01-07-2005 - 12:30pm
(((((nony)))))
Thanks for the hugs.
More hugs back,
Laurie

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Fri, 01-07-2005 - 2:18pm
What an elegantly written post. It brought feelings and emotions to the surface I haven't felt for along time. Made me smile and made me cry.
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Fri, 01-07-2005 - 8:39pm

Cat, Laurie,

There is one particular song that brings back one particular moment, and it was such a brief one, but powerful enough to still, even now take my breath away. Back when Faith Hill came out with Breathe, and I had my first kiss from an ex. And I don't exaggerate when I say it was truly the Fourth of July in that room. And since then, the wonderful times we had, and the tragically sad way the relationship ended. She didn't hurt me; I hurt deeply for her though. And whenever I hear Breathe, I get chills from head to toe, and my breath catches, and all I can do is close my eyes and be swept away. It's amazing that after 7 years I am still so affected by that one particular song. I have the Cd and I've not played it since we broke up. But whenever I hear it, it destroys all sense of equilibrium. Music by itself can transport me though, to places far and wide, magical and poignant, but oh so bittersweet sometimes. But I could not live without it no more than I could live without breath. Music is the one catharsis, a tight beat over a perfect verse, a tonal alliteration that touches me in ways no human ever has. Thank God for it!!!

Laurie, I think you are a very brave and loyal woman. And one who is hurting, more deeply than you'd ever let anyone know. But as I read your posts I can feel it and if I could I'd give you a big old hug because everything you've said struck a deep chord for me. It is a lonely world living with your best friend. One that you're in love with, with every fiber of your being. I don't even know what to say Laurie except I feel you ...

And like you I think I better stop talking now. Cat, lol, you've given me the music bug. I think I need Annie Lennox - the Bare album spinning on the player right now. No one says it like her on that album I swear. (At least not right at this moment anyway)

Hugs Laurie...Thanks Cat, for making music come alive for me tonight!

Always,

Lafaye

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Fri, 01-07-2005 - 9:30pm
((((((Laurie)))))) I am sorry you are suffering through these feelings..These times.. I read your post here about the person (ex) that hurt you,and I have read your feelings about you and Sheila...
The lack of intimacy you talk of Hon.. Is it that Sheila won't cuddle either?.. Perhaps she feels not safe in that it will have to lead to more and you may know inside that it will ..
You shouldn't suffer in silence, you can voice it to her,

 C  >^. A .

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Fri, 01-07-2005 - 9:33pm
Thank You khiapet (hon)..Was just feeling the feelings and listening to the music and it grabbed a hold of me and swept through me and over me..
Glad I made you **Smile** Sorry I made you cry, unless of course it was a cry that helped..
((((((((hugs)))))))"CAT"
(((((((((((

 C  >^. A .

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Fri, 01-07-2005 - 10:51pm
Wow very well said lafaye.
At least we know we have company in this area.
Somehow it seems a relief to know that it happens in other relationships and this is not just me being foolish. It helps to know that it is maybe a normal thing for some relationships to go through.
And now knowing that things I have shared with you strike the same chord I know it is not just me. Or that moving on to another relationship could be a disaster.
I love the song Breathe. Maybe we are just to sentimental?
You are right about me hurting more than I let on. It is nice to know there is someone out there who can really know how I feel. I believe you do feel the same or know lafaye.
And thanks for the big old hug, I can feel it over here.
Annie Lennox, I love her music too.
Yes Cat can make you think when she lets herself go with her thoughts. I call her Lee by the way, just so you know who I mean when I say Lee.
Big hugs to you,
Laurie

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Fri, 01-07-2005 - 10:55pm

Waving at Laurie~~~~~~~~~

rj :)

rj

Franco Harris of the Pittsburgh Steelers in 197

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Fri, 01-07-2005 - 10:59pm

CAT! I love your signature!

You've got me started grrl. I downloaded some music tonight. I downloaded one of my all time favs...China Girl by David Bowie

I feel an tragic like an marlon brando
When I look at my china girl
I could pretend that nothing really meant too much
When I look at my china girl

And when I get excited
My little china girl says
Oh baby just you shut your mouth

Makes imagine she's wearing leather and slaps me, tells me to shut my mouth, and then kisses me. Whew! What a rush!

rj :)

rj

Franco Harris of the Pittsburgh Steelers in 197

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Fri, 01-07-2005 - 11:01pm
It's so funny that I should read this post tonight Cat! On my way to work this morning, I was listeneing to the local hip-hop station - not my usual kind of music but they were playing some "old school" jams and I got into it. A song by 2 Short came on "Back to the Hotel". Suddenly, I was 17 again, dating the most popular boy in HS, sitting in the passenger seat of his car going to school, our friends in the backseat, listening for the um-teenth hundreth time to that track on his tape. I could smell his Drakkar Noir and the musty scent of the interior of his Barracuda that he drove. OMG! That soooooo took me back.

every great journey begins with one step

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