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| Thu, 02-10-2005 - 1:36am |
Again,
Tonight, I was alone....and the whole world seemed to stand still around me...You have captured me with your heart......a girl came to me, professing her admiration, and I passed her off, and introduced my friend to her. I am so full of fear tonight, fear of losing you. I stand here again, all eye's upon me.....and all I can think about is you.....again.
The night is still; where am I going to go to release this love inside of me? When I sing, it is love,,,,,and all are cheering, the crowd is saying yes to me, and I take a bow like you said I should do....what good is that, when you are far from me...?
I stand in front of the speakers drowning the sound of you in my mind, clearing the cob webs and watching others slow dance with time.....All I can do is think of you, standing here on shore and watching you drown............
The wind whispers in the trees, and the moon shines bright between the clouds tonight,, in your arms I long to be......rain beating on the window pain and my heart beat lost with the rythym of the wind and trees hanging on the breeze, oh how I wish you can feel the love I have for you tonight. I am so sorry for all that you had endured tonight..... Please forgive me,,,,,,love of my life....please forgive me................for loving you...tonight.............
Sorry everyone........
wed are hard on me.......
halo

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"Hold fast to dreams for if dreams die, Life is a broken winged bird that can not fly"
Keep that dream alive my friend and someday you will soar like the pilot you are.
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aka
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If that's the case, send in the clowns and give me a good doctor, I'm feeling clipped and grounded right now. :( Ah such is life, this merry go round......
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Thanks so much for the comfort in words and friendship....I think I will go rest now?
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halo
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halo
my email bethh137@yahoo.com
I want to comfort you and keep you from this pain...
My partner of eight years now has completly learned the truth...
We both spent lastnight crying when my love for you came out...
My heart is torn in two and the truth is finally out...
I will not hide in shame for loving you right now.
For three years I was messerable never feeling loved...
The pain was so unbearable and then I worked it out...
I distanced myself from the pain, that left me full of doubt...
I hardened my heart to protect it from the pain...
Until I met you, and my heart began to melt...
My heart is aching for you as I don't know what to do...
My love for you keeps growing...
ThoughI belong to someone else.
I cannot keep from calling you, this whole thing breaks my heart...
Your voice makes me feel so weak and melts my heart each time...
I don't know how to end this post...
But I see that you are calling. So I will go and talk to you and
let my heart melt more....
Hugs,
Laurie
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My Love,
I am so sorry that you had to go through that yesterday. I know how difficult it must have been for Shiela and you. It was so hard waiting and wondering how you were? In my heart I knew that my love for you is real. Last night I ran all the options through my head, wondering if we could have done anything different. We couldn't and we can't now. We were feeling love before we spoke of it to each other. That's not a planned event. I wrote this to R yesterday, when I confessed my love for you to her.
I also have learned that there are some things about
love that even the most righteous person will never
understand. Not all people are vicious and set out to
steal someones love. Love happens, and God is showing
me this right now.
I went back to my other Still of the night and pulled this up to remind me of where we began.
I put aside my prudent and self righteous Virgo idealism, and allowed my Pisces dream girl, to open a door wide into a world I have never known before. For once, I was not silent, and I let my words speak true what I was feeling inside at that moment. I didn't hold back for what should be done, and what was right, and I let the very flood waters enter into my soul, and gave what I was asked to give by her. My heart raced with desire and I sat there shaking, wanting more. She asked at the right moment what I had desired in my mind before I had the chance to ask of her. How did she know what I wanted to give to her? The moment was exactly like I imagined it would be when I read the match thread for my Pisces and I. Thank you for that as well.
If I had not read that match, I wouldn't have dared to step outside the boundaries with her. I placed myself in her hands and went freely in to fulfill her desire. She took my hand, and touched my heart; hand in hand in my minds eye we ran through a field of wild flowers, deep blue sun-shined sky, and we fell into each others arms under a large oak tree, laying on thick green grass laughing in our hearts.
One of the options I thought about was walking away from your love. Only I can't do that...we have been two ships passing in the night, and we have met in one of the most intriguing and romantic ways. Our lives were meant for each other. From the circus, our home town, the Grotto, the people we know, you know my dad, aviation, military, and the connection keeps going on and on....the odds of finding each other and having these connections are phenominal. Plus you staying with Shiela for the past three years in a relationship that had no intimacy, any girl could have came across your heart and stumbled onto it. But, that didn't happen.
I love you and I'm not going to hide that anymore either. I'm always by your side. I must end and get ready for work....love you xxoxoxoxoxo
halo
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C >^. A .
Thank you Cat, I didn't want to be the first one to say OMG!!!!
But WOW!!
Carol, In love with the most beautiful woman in the world.
Cat,
I have been away all day, and just have to say,
that's it? OMG ;)
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halo
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Kacey,
You too? OMG :)
halo
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I am just... well..at a loss for words and that summed it up,
C >^. A .
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