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| Fri, 02-11-2005 - 11:24am |
As most of you now know, Sheila and I are having some serious relationship problems.
Eight years is a long time together to grow and care for each other.
We are seriously going to work on our relationship and hope to get back on track.
My feelings for someone on this board have brought us to a point in our relationship where we need to work through this or move on.
I do not mean by running into the arms of this other person, but by the fact that I never thought I could feel like this for someone else when I was in love with Sheila, or at least if things were right and when they were, I never could have room in my heart to feel like this for anyone else.
In most ways Sheila and I are a perfect fit. As far as intimacy goes we are lacking. And I for one need intimacy in a relationship.
We are working on things and talking with my counselor and we have always been in love so we have a good chance here.
This is not anyones fault, feelings just happen. I have been honest with both parties involved. Sheila is fully aware of what is happening and is doing everything in her power to hold on to this relationship. I feel that I can not just throw 8 years of us away.
Both Sheila and I and Halo and I have spent many nights talking and crying and trying to figure this whole thing out.
Halo and I will continue a friendship with Sheila's blessings and Sheila and I will work on our relationship with counseling etc.
It seem that there is no matter what, someone will be hurt in all of this.
I have been so sick with hurt and worry and guilt and crying. I need to make this decision to work on my relationship and not just continue in a hovering pattern.
I know that halo is hurting right now too. It tears my heart out to see her in pain and it rips my heart out to see Sheila in pain.
We have agreed to work on a solution to everything starting right away.
I am asking for prayers and positive thoughts for all three of us.
Thank you and sorry to have put you all in such shock. I have never seen the board so silent as it seemed that people were uncomfortable with a certain post between halo and I. For which I appoligize, things have been just coming to a major head.
I was tired of lying to the board and Sheila and myself on this matter.
We will get through this. I am confident of that.
I love you all and I am sorry to put you into a position of not knowing what to say as this affects 2 board members. We do not expect anyone to choose sides, but rather to pray or wish positive thoughts that we can work through this with the best positive outcome.
Sheila and I have a good relationship and communicate very well. I am a very lucky woman. She is standing by and being supportive and loving through it all. I am smart enough to know this does not happen very often.
Halo is doing the same.
Even though it is painful for the 3 of us we are handling it like adults and for this I am grateful.
Sorry if I have caused any problems for anyone here.
Eight years is a long time together to grow and care for each other.
We are seriously going to work on our relationship and hope to get back on track.
My feelings for someone on this board have brought us to a point in our relationship where we need to work through this or move on.
I do not mean by running into the arms of this other person, but by the fact that I never thought I could feel like this for someone else when I was in love with Sheila, or at least if things were right and when they were, I never could have room in my heart to feel like this for anyone else.
In most ways Sheila and I are a perfect fit. As far as intimacy goes we are lacking. And I for one need intimacy in a relationship.
We are working on things and talking with my counselor and we have always been in love so we have a good chance here.
This is not anyones fault, feelings just happen. I have been honest with both parties involved. Sheila is fully aware of what is happening and is doing everything in her power to hold on to this relationship. I feel that I can not just throw 8 years of us away.
Both Sheila and I and Halo and I have spent many nights talking and crying and trying to figure this whole thing out.
Halo and I will continue a friendship with Sheila's blessings and Sheila and I will work on our relationship with counseling etc.
It seem that there is no matter what, someone will be hurt in all of this.
I have been so sick with hurt and worry and guilt and crying. I need to make this decision to work on my relationship and not just continue in a hovering pattern.
I know that halo is hurting right now too. It tears my heart out to see her in pain and it rips my heart out to see Sheila in pain.
We have agreed to work on a solution to everything starting right away.
I am asking for prayers and positive thoughts for all three of us.
Thank you and sorry to have put you all in such shock. I have never seen the board so silent as it seemed that people were uncomfortable with a certain post between halo and I. For which I appoligize, things have been just coming to a major head.
I was tired of lying to the board and Sheila and myself on this matter.
We will get through this. I am confident of that.
I love you all and I am sorry to put you into a position of not knowing what to say as this affects 2 board members. We do not expect anyone to choose sides, but rather to pray or wish positive thoughts that we can work through this with the best positive outcome.
Sheila and I have a good relationship and communicate very well. I am a very lucky woman. She is standing by and being supportive and loving through it all. I am smart enough to know this does not happen very often.
Halo is doing the same.
Even though it is painful for the 3 of us we are handling it like adults and for this I am grateful.
Sorry if I have caused any problems for anyone here.
Hugs,
Laurie
co-cl of Lesbian Life Message Board
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(((( Laurie, Sheila, and Halo )))
I wish you all peace of mind and many prayers. It's great that you are talking,that has to be IMHO the most important thing in a relationship.
Many many tight hugs & love
Robin
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((((((Laurie))))))) Thinking of you, Halo, and Sheila and wishing you all nothing but the best life has to offer through love and friendship.
It is so good to have you back!
Hugs,
Laurie
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And I am wishing you and caly a great moving day!!
Hugs,
Laurie
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Hey Laurie!
I dont believe you caused any problems here.
aka
The silence on the board was actuallt deafening if that makes sense.
I can take the brutal honesty though.
I know I am not the good person in this situation.
I think the spotlight has made me take a hard look at things. I have really enjoyed it.
I have had to give talks about my life before so it does not bother me to talk about it.
That doesn't mean I am proud of everything. I do have my regrets.
The three of us have talked long and hard about this and we are doing what we feel is best for now.
There have been many tears and heartache too.
Thank you for posting. The silence kills me. I rather be told upfron and know where I stand with people, than having to guess, because I never guess it is anything good.
I appreciate the fact that you and ting feel free to be straight up with me/us.
I am not here looking for total acceptance. I know this is not a good place to be in.
Laurie
co-cl of Lesbian Life Message Board
Email- didoangst@aol.com
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Laurie, I'm sorry things turned out like they did, in a way, I sort of expected it. I haven't really been around, because of school and my own recent break up. I really hope this situation works out and no one gets too hurt. I completely forgive you, and I do pray for the three of you.
As long as the communication between the three of you stays open and honest, then there's no reason why you all can't be friends.
{{{{{{{{{{Sheila}}}}}}}}}}, {{{{{{{{{{Laurie}}}}}}}}}} {{{{{{{{{{Halo}}}}}}}}}}.
Edited 2/11/2005 4:01 pm ET ET by igentleheart
Hugs,
Sebastian
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Laurie,
Things happen, we all know that first hand. None of us can judge you, no one can. I hope you come to a resolution that you are comfortable with. You didn't cause any of us any trouble, you just threw us off a little. *smoooooch* If you need to talk, ever,you know how to reach me.
(((((((((((((((((((((((Shelia,Laurie,Lesli)))))))))))))))))))))))))
Hugs, Sandra
Sandr
To all three of you, Laurie, halo, and Shiela...
There was no "bad guy" in this. Sometimes these situations, however painful they may be, help us to see what is wrong in our lives and make us reevaluate everything around us.
Whatever may transpire, I wish all three of you healing, and a positive resolution so that you can all move on....with no regrets.
my email bethh137@yahoo.com
I have never been in this position before.
It hurts on every side.
Thanks for your e-mail too my friend.
Laurie
co-cl of Lesbian Life Message Board
Email- didoangst@aol.com
http://messageboards.ivillage.com/iv-bhlesbianlif/
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