Here goes nothing....

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Here goes nothing....
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Mon, 02-14-2005 - 10:59pm

Well, this is hard for me to admit but I figure if I say it to someone it's the first step toward change, I am a spoiled brat.

Tomorrow I start my new job, 8-4:30, answering phones, filing papers....my jeans days few and far between. Even though I am grateful for the job I have been so fortunate for so many years. All my life actually. Now I have to work, and budget money, and try to save. Everything has always been provided for me and now I can only count on me. I am not very reliable.

I am scared for the first time in my life. I cannot have what I want, I am having a hard time just getting what I need. I got a job just in the nick of time. God is good to me.

Well, tomorrow is the first day of my new life and I just wanted to come share my feelings. I have to go to bed, I have also lost the luxury of living on my own schedule, no more late nights.

Somebody shoot me please.

Sandra

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Registered: 11-29-2004
Mon, 02-14-2005 - 11:30pm

Sandra,

I dug this up from a letter that I wrote a dear friend and thought it might help you.

"The arch enemy of mankind is
fear. Common fears which we permit to enter our minds
and thereby become literally "self-imposed"
limitations". Quote from Napoleon Hill.

Sometimes when these fears seem over whelming, we allow them to enter and control our minds and emotions. Go to work tomorrow with a greatful heart, and control the fear, put it in it's place and watch it diminish. Not an easy task, but I did it once in an unbearable situation.. I was so over whelmed with fear, and emotion that I wanted to cry. I went to the rest room in a stall and repeatedly told myself that I had control over my emotions. Then as quickly as it came, it disappeared. Fear keeps the rewards that await you at bay. We get in a rut and stay there because we accept our circumstances. You can overcome the challenges that you fear, and you will be stronger and better than you can ever imagine for yourself. Have faith in yourself............

"To be aware of a single shortcoming within
oneself is more useful than to be aware of a thousand
in somebody else."
- The Dalai Lama

Good luck tomorrow...you will be in my mind.

Hugs
Halo

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halo

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Tue, 02-15-2005 - 12:09am
((((Hugs Sandra))))) Been there where you were..and stepped out and went where you are now.. You'll do great!..
Thanks for the chuckle even with all your feeling... you still managed it, with that last line..
"Somebody Shoot me"~~~ LOL ~~~Know that feeling *Smiles..

((((Hugs))))


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Registered: 01-28-2005
Tue, 02-15-2005 - 6:46am

How about a kiss on the cheek and a hug. That's much better than the shooting stuff. ;)

I hope you have a pleasant first day. I'm rooting for you! Go Sandra, Go Sandra, Go Sandra!

Actually, I want to email you. But, I've lost your address. Can I email you? Would you mind giving me your email address again? If you don't want to, that's okay.

Hugs,

buggie




Edited 2/15/2005 6:55 am ET ET by bug1971
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Tue, 02-15-2005 - 8:02am

No Shooting allowed hehe!


(((((((((((Sandra)))))))))))))


Good Luck to you my friend!

 *Hugs ~  Caly

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Tue, 02-15-2005 - 8:44am
Beautiful poem Caly! Writing poetry at 4am is not strange. I do some pretty off the wall things in the wee hours of morning when I can't sleep!

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Tue, 02-15-2005 - 8:48am
((((((sandra))))) I'll be thinking of you today! I love the quote halo posted. We all have fear, but God never puts more on our plate than we can handle. You'll do great, and I can't wait to hear about your day!

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Registered: 02-04-2005
Tue, 02-15-2005 - 9:06am
I'll shoot you Sandra,
Seems everyone else prefers to watch you suffer, not me, I can give you what you want...
Guess it is not all fun being spoiled.
Before you know it, this will be your comfort in life. Not having someone else in charge of you. Being able to make your own decisions and spend how you want.
Of course always pay the bills first and then go from there.
I have been on my own since I was 18 years old. Things seem to always work out one way or the other. You might meet some nice people at work to make it more enjoyable. You will enjoy your free days. You will have pay checks rolling in and you will know how much comes out of each check for the bills that you have to pay that time. And you will know how much you have left over to save or spend.
You will be okay...I promise...I hope you will find time to let us know how your first day went. Give it a month or two and it will feel normal.
I even liked dressing up for work. It made me feel good.
I hope you had a good first day!
Luv you,
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Tue, 02-15-2005 - 10:14am
Good luck on the rest of your life... this is what I told Jeremy on his first day of school.... Be good, be nice to the other kids, do what you are suppose to and you will make friends and have fun! It'll be fine! Big hugs to you!
mandi
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Registered: 01-31-2005
Tue, 02-15-2005 - 10:36am

((((((((Sandra))))))) You will be just fine and will blossom at your new job I'm sure. I do agree with Laurie in that hopefully you will cherish your newfound independence. I am in the same boat being newly divorced, and that is something I'm looking forward to actually. I got myself in a mess financially and now have a chance to start over and manage my money the right way. I hope you will find happiness in this new life, Sandra. Look at it as a chance to make your life exactly the way you want it to be.


Please come back today and tell us how your first day went. Big hugs to you!


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Registered: 09-10-2004
Tue, 02-15-2005 - 10:56am

((( Sandra )))


I can so relate, it is very scary to do everything on your own. The upside is that you have so many people behind you that know you can do it !


I won't shoot you, but how about a big proud hug for your first day of work :)


Hugs,

Robin

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