Crossing an Invisible Line

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Registered: 02-21-2005
Crossing an Invisible Line
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Wed, 02-23-2005 - 9:28pm
I come from a very religious home. I am very close with my mother who i often see on a daily basis, but whom i do not share all my inner most secrets with...this being one of them~since my early teens i have been drawn to woman. Although I have never been with another woman and have only shared this secret desire with my soulmate/husband~it's my only fantasy! He encourages me to pursue this fantasy and seek out someone. However, i feel very conflicted. Whenever i think about taking a step, for instance posting this message, i feel that i am doing something very wrong and i think that once the door is open then there is no going back (that scares me alot). Yet, i often long to chat with someone who has/has had similar feelings/emotions. I guess i just have alot of questions and no one to ask. Anyone up for a chat or two????

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Registered: 01-23-2005
Sat, 02-26-2005 - 4:30pm
Nony, just wanted to let you know that your insight really amazes me.

 

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Registered: 10-01-2003
Sun, 02-27-2005 - 2:34am

Geez Beth, you tryin to embarrrass me?

 

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Registered: 02-21-2005
Mon, 02-28-2005 - 10:04pm
To everyone who responded to my message board i thank you all! Big hug from me to you. I read all your responses and appreciate you taking the time to give your opinions/views on my subject. I know that at this point in time i am not ready to share my thoughts with anyone other than here and with my husband. I think it is great that there is such a place where one can come and open their heart, soul and mind without the fears associated with giving a name, age and location. I appreciate my husband being so open but, like was mentioned in a response, i too know that perhaps he hasn't considered what taking a step could mean. I on the other hand have! There are many more factors involved here that i did not mention and when i stand back and look at it in it's whole i see that perhaps there are more important things than making a fantasy come to life. Does my attraction to woman go beyond this....yes i feel it does. However the love for my family and my religious upbringing weigh in too, so for now i would just like to hang out, chat and make some new friends.....again~thank you all!!
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Registered: 01-23-2005
Mon, 02-28-2005 - 10:09pm
This is a wonderful place to hang out and make friends! I'm glad we could help out.

 

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Registered: 09-29-2003
Mon, 02-28-2005 - 10:13pm
Awwwww Missplants.. Glad you decided to hang out here and grow with us..
It takes time..
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