on red eye from lurker-ville.....

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on red eye from lurker-ville.....
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Tue, 05-10-2005 - 6:12pm

hi ladies....

hope this finds everyone here well....
I have no real explaination for my disappearance besides some on going computer issues....I have came here and was reading a post here and there but well have not written,and well It has been my own issues that bum me to the point of not even wanting to do anything except play playstation for hours and hours when I am not working.
I am supposed to be moving up at work but have to learn 30 plus definitions that may as well be written in German...I haven't done it...
The higher pay should motavate me but it has not.
My loser dad won't keep a job so I support my mom and well should not even consider moving out cause I have to be here....
He comes and goes from this state to the next as he pleases.....
Not that I should be moaning....pop up and moan...hopefully I am gonna get out of my slump....who knows....not even sure what brought it about...
My current gf and I will be together 3 months this month...I love her to death ,she is great but not sure about things...not sure If she is the right person for me at all....I pretty much feel she isn't but she has not done anything wrong and I hate to hurt someone when I am unsure...I might would call it quits then later regret it.....hope everyone is well...i miss everyone just having some issues ,nothing against the board or you fine ladies......

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Tue, 05-10-2005 - 7:51pm

Hey Jo! As far as I can tell the both of you are going through a normal phase in your relationship, congratulations! And welcome to feeling those feelings that people normally go through, when they're in love with someone. Have patience and stick out, that unsure phase will pass. I have missed you, and it's good to see you. I also had computer and phone issues, but one month at a time, my phone and computer internet will continue.

I can understand about non-caring dads, just keep on taking care of your mom. Motivation, I find come from the inside, I had to do something with myself, or I would have stayed stuck and just gone backwards. But I chose to go forward, and do the best that I know that I can do. As usual, it's always what you want to do to improve yourself.

Anyway, it's always good to see ya!

Peace!

 


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Sebastian


 


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Tue, 05-10-2005 - 9:03pm
Hi - nice to see an old familiar face!! Its been a long while since I've been here too, so glad you dropped us a line!! I'm sorry you're feeling down and in a slump, sending big hugs!! I know you will find your way out - and we'll be right here when you do feel like like coming out to play again! That's one thing I know.. there will always be a safe place for us to come to. Again sending a giant ((((HUG)))). Pooh Bear
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Wed, 05-11-2005 - 12:33am

(((((Jo)))))


I wish you and your new g/f all the best.


Hugs from Pam


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Wed, 05-11-2005 - 8:33am

((((((((( Jo )))))))))


I'm glad to see you pop up hon. Don't you worry about feeling obliged to us here, we all cope in our own ways. And it sounds like you've been doing a lot of coping lately! Sorry things are so rough, I hope things begin to pick up for you soon. And if you feel that sharing might help, you know we're here for you... kay?


*hugs* ~ Nony

 

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Wed, 05-11-2005 - 9:35am

Hey there stranger! What nony said - no pressure! We're just glad to see ya pop in.


Hope to see a little more of you. Best of luck with the computer, the gf, and your dad.


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Wed, 05-11-2005 - 2:41pm


I hope your troubles come clear to you soon.

I have to tell you though - If you don't feel things are right (girlfriend) there's a reason. Look deep within yourself and figure out what that reason is. You shouldn't (I repeat) shouldn't stay with somebody if you feel that way. Yes she may be hurt - And it may hurt you to do it but it's sounds like your stringing her along because your not sure yourself. Which always makes things worst in the end (believe me).

It's time to cheer your self up. You must be tired of having that playstation finger (and you know what I'm talking about - finger going numb/that newly built extra skin {hehe}).

We love and care for you here - turn on the computer and type away!

LOL,
Angel

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Registered: 01-28-2005
Wed, 05-11-2005 - 9:20pm

Hey Jo,

I hope things improve for you. I really don't know what to say in regard to your feelings about your girlfriend. To be quite honest, I wouldn't mind knowing what it is like to have a girlfriend. But, I'm always playing the reject. A role I'm quite tired of playing. But, I've had people tell me that there are worse things than being alone. Though, I'll have to admit at times I wonder if that is true. LOL The other day I was wishing that I were still married so I would have someone to go to the beach with. I have this guy at the Y who really likes me. Sometimes I feel like that little cartoon character. You know, the cat who accidently gets the white stripe down her back. LOL I'm the lesbian that guys constantly mistake for a straight woman. LOL

Anyway, hang in there. Sometimes I get down. I feel really lonely. But, I try to just take one day at a time. It doesn't mean you can't plan and make goals. But, try not to rationalize that there's no way out or not a solution. There's always an option. It may not be easy to implement. It may not be fun. But, there's always an option or options. Good luck to ya!

Hugs,

buggie

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Thu, 05-12-2005 - 12:14am
Hey (((Jo)))) Wonderful to see ya post.. Missed you.. So sorry about all thats going on thats got you worried, concerned, upset..
I understand about the job thing.. Hon just put your best to it and thats all you can do.. You may be having problems with it because your having so much occupying your mind at home..
The g/f thing well.. As other's have said, if it doesn't feel right for you, then perhaps it should be brought out and talked about, if you haven't already.. I know you have a

 C  >^. A .

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Fri, 05-13-2005 - 6:41pm
hi igentle ,
thanks
yeah the not so good dad's well suck but I am not my dad and well we only get one dad,and we can't pick them...
as far as the relationship thanks,we will see......Jo
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Fri, 05-13-2005 - 6:44pm
thanks pooh,
nice to see you and nice to be around some,even though life is still majorly hetic,Jo

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