Got bad new today

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Got bad new today
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Thu, 06-02-2005 - 3:48pm


Why I was at work this morning I get a phone call from the doctors office. They called back with results from test that I had ran on May 17th. She tells me my test came back really bad. And the biopsy's came back extremely something or another. I think by this time I'm totally zoned out. I cannot even remember half of the stuff she told. I now have to have surgery. I have too go into the office tomorrow to talk to the doctor. I'm really scared what she's going to say to me when I get there.

They called me at work because they wanted the appointment for the surgery set up today. She wanted me to have the first appointment open. She said if somebody has to cancel I will be offered their spot first. I guess I have to wait until tomorrow. I really cannot cry anymore my eyes are puffy and swollen and my head is spinning.

Angel

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Sun, 06-05-2005 - 9:34am

Thanks Cat.....I missed you all.


Lea

 

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Sun, 06-05-2005 - 10:24am
Lea,
It is good to see you here I have missed you.
I hope things are going well for you.
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Mon, 06-06-2005 - 9:30am


Thank you Lea.

I'm trying to stay strong, but I cannot stop worrying. I keep thinking crazy things. What if it is cancer, what if I don't make it etc. Our family just got finished going through a horrible ordeal of this with my grandmother. They said she had a tumor in her brain. She went into surgery a week later they said it was cancer. A week later they said the cancer was throughout her body. They couldn't do anything for her. with in six weeks after that she was gone.

So this is really hitting home for me. I cannot stop worrying my self sick. But I have to do what's best. Putting it off or just not doing nothing about it isn't the right thing to do. I have to much on my plate to act like nothing is wrong.

Thanks again for you prayers!

LOL,
Angel

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Mon, 06-06-2005 - 7:47pm

Hi Angel,......


Please go do it.....do not sit back and wait, okay.

 

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Mon, 06-06-2005 - 10:30pm
(((((((((((Hugs Lea))))))))))) Thanks for sharing that ..Glad you made it ...and are with

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Tue, 06-07-2005 - 9:45am


I made the appointment to go into the office to talk next Tuesday. I've made my mind up already that I will not cry again (it makes my eye's all puffy anyway - and I still have to remain cute). I going to take what they give me and work with it. I'm going to fight as hard as I can because my children deserve a mother.

Thanks!
Angel

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Tue, 06-07-2005 - 9:48am


I also will keep you in my prayers. I do know that it's a fight for you everyday.

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Angel

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Tue, 06-07-2005 - 9:26pm

Girl,......I could say you have no idea.....but we each have a different experience.


I battled with the same decision last year as you are facing and underwent the surgery, 2 of them actually. I have lost count how many times.....and before I was diagnosed I was never sick and only been to a hospital to have the kids. What a rude awakening. *sigh*

 

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Tue, 06-07-2005 - 11:04pm

Awww Angel,

Hang tight and stay positive. The most important thing you can do now is try to enjoy life and be positive. You need the good energy to run through your body. I know you are fearful, and it's easier said then done. But, they say people do better with these things when they stay positive. Your Grandma knows the suffering, and I would like to think she is in heaven asking god to heal you, and is sending healing angels to your side. She knows them all by name, and can direct them better from where she is at.

I watched two friends go through the same thing. The young one was fearful, and really struggled with her circumstances. The older one, stayed positive and refused to give in. The young one was not as advanced, and the older woman was much farther along. Both recovered and were treated properly, it's just that the youngest one seemed to be worse because she was so negative, and had a harder time recovering. Well, I don't know if this will help you at all, but, put your faith in God, and all of us will pray for healing to come your way. The women of this board will give you the support you need through prayer. Take care, and try to get some rest.

hugs
halo

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halo

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Wed, 06-08-2005 - 10:40am


Halo,

Your a sweetheart! I'm trying and that's all I can do.

LOL,
Angel

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