In Remembrance
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| Sat, 06-04-2005 - 10:23pm |
January 1996- June 4, 2005
Hobie
Death: 9:59 pm
I was watching TV. I heard a noise come from his cage. I got up to see about him. He was lying on his side in the cage. His wing was caught. I picked him up in my hands. But, he couldn't stand up. He moved a couple of times in a jerking motion. He died in my hands.
This whole past week, I have been so depressed. He tried to hang on. He didn't want to die. But, he stopped eating and wouldn't drink water. I tried to feed him by hand, but he wouldn't open his beak. I kept giving him the medicine from the vet hoping he would get better. Oh gosh, he hated that medicine.
You see, he wasn't just a bird. He was my friend. He gave me something to come home to. He would talk, whistle and chirp- his noise filled the apartment. Now, it seems so quiet and lonely.
I've never had something die in my hands before. To see the clinging on to life and gasping for the last breath was so painful.
I've had trouble sleeping all week. I would worry that he would die in the middle of the night. I would awake at the wee hours to check on him. There will be no more checking now. He is gone.

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Thanks TING & Caly. I appreciate you thinking of me.
hugs,
andie
Thanks Pooh- that was a sweet reply. I was thinking about him today and the times he sat on my shoulder and nibbled on my neck.
Hugs,
andie
Oh Bug, I'm just now seeing this.
Kim
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Thanks Kim. I do really miss him. I would talk to him alot. Though, he couldn't answer back, it gave me someone to talk to. I've been having a bit of trouble falling asleep at night since his death. I'll be really sleepy while the TV is on, but the minute I turn it off, I can't sleep. If I leave it on, I have a tendency to not sleep as deeply. I guess I just feel so lonely is the best way to put it. His presence was a comfort.
Well, I'm going to visit another board and complain about a therapist. LOL I've been trying to get hypnotherapy for my little interstate quirk. I spoke to a therapist that does hypnotherapy today. She requires a first time consultation, which costs $145! She's not covered under our insurance network. Well, I told her that my life wasn't that exciting and that she could get to know me in a much shorter period of time. The $145 dollar session is for 1 hour and a half. Thirty minutes should cover my life quite easily. LOL
Thanks again!
hugs,
andie
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