Has anyone ever experienced this???
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Has anyone ever experienced this???
| Sat, 07-23-2005 - 6:34pm |
I've been trying to figure out why this green eyed lady captivates me so... I have to admit, this is new for me.

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Hi Pooh,
I've had this happen to me before. I can understand exactly what you are referring to. Back in the late 90's, I had a major crush on a woman who was a Presbyterian pastor. The first time I saw her, she was delivering a sermon. It was my first visit to the church. I thought that she was the most beautiful woman I had ever seen and wanted to die for her if that need be. I felt very drawn to her. She and I communicated much via email and on occasions at church. I wouldn't say that we were exactly friends, but she exchanged email with me at one point on a weekly basis. It was just chit-chat type stuff not church related topics. I felt a strong connection to her. She seemed to show an interest in me. She often would go out of her way to strike up conversation with me at church after the service. She knew I was gay too. Unfortunately for me, I couldn't contain my feelings and told her. She didn't deal with it too well. And, she began to avoid me in public situations. If I accidently met her in a private situation, she would acknowledge me and even sometimes giggle and smile as if she were fine with my presence again. But, then later in public, she would avoid me like I was a plague. It was a very difficult situation for me.
One of the biggest mistakes I made with her wasn't telling her about my affections, but staying attached to the fact that I wanted her. Wanting her was fine but it was obvious that she wasn't ready or wanted me back. I wasted so much time in my thoughts and even in my life being consumed by her. I wish now that I could have that time back. If I had it, I would put it to use in my search for a woman who would want me and like me back.
(((((Pooh)))) I hope you have a pleasant Saturday night!
Take care,
rj
I sometimes think it is a spiritual or soulful connection. Something our spirits or souls know within us.
Maybe these souls have connected before on some other plain and recognize each other. Maybe we feel good when it is a positive soul experience and not so good when it is a negative remembrance. I think it is very special though. Even if it is not a greeting on the same level.
I like the mystery of it though, very romantic.
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Thank you for sharing that with me RJ, you are a very wise woman and caring woman!!
Hey Pooh,
Thanks. But, wise I'm not. I have so much to learn. Sometimes I can be so immature in my actions. So, I always try to improve upon the improved version of what is called me.
If the green eyed lady doesn't come around there will be another woman who will give you that same spark. I once thought that I would never feel that same way again. But, I have many times since the pastor woman felt that way. It is different with each woman. I guess it would be because each woman is different. I don't know. I lack expert status on this subject. :)
take care,
rj
Hey Pooh, I know the feelings that you are going through. I always go through it whenever I'm obessesd with a woman. I'm just like a boy the just hit puberty. Everytime I see a certain woman, I lose my ability to speak the English language, or I want to be around her all the time, not to mention, I like poking, proding, or touching her; sometimes I'll try to make excuses to touch her hair. Believe me, you're not alone in this.
Hugs,
Sebastian
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.....and she captivates your soul and all that you are. You wake in the morning thinking of her.....you gaze into the afternoon sun wondering what she is doing.....you fall asleep at night wishing she was beside you.
Chelle
Well, Pooh, you know I'm right there with you!
I mentioned in the other post that she stands pretty close to me. Well, when she does, I feel so connected to her energy, comforted by it, bouyed by it. It's often a very heady experience! She is great at just being with me. And it feels wonderful just to stand near her!
When she actually touches me on the arm or the hand, it's like
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