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Sat, 08-06-2005 - 1:14am




Edited 8/6/2005 1:19 am ET ET by sandralea33

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Sat, 08-06-2005 - 1:55am
Ohhhhh.. Did any one get to read anything from Sandra before it was deleted?.. Seems like a sad post or worrisome post was taking place and was deleted....
Sandra?... Whats going on?..
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Sat, 08-06-2005 - 3:00am
Sandra,
What happened? I/we know something is wrong. You had a sad face icon and deleted your post. Please come back.
I have missed you and I sure hope it is not to serious.
Thinking of you friend...
Hugs,
Laurie
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Sat, 08-06-2005 - 3:01am
Looks like we just missed her post cat.
Maybe she will see our posts and come back.
Hugs,
Laurie
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Sat, 08-06-2005 - 10:15am

So sorry ladies....I was having a dramatic evening and needed a friend. Once I typed the whole thing out I changed my mind. I am aware that every decision I make has consequences and that I have made my own bed so I should just shut up about it and sleep in it.

To make a long story short, I am single and alone and it's not going so well. Jenny and I live seperately although we remain friends. I miss her company sometimes but do not want to reconcile. She is very young and I can't handle it. I love having her as a friend, and thats what she is. She moved in with her sister at my request a while back. I am happy with the decision.

The drama comes from another place, I have been spending time with a co-worker and she is married. I have become a "mistress" and since I settled for that then I have to live with the consequences. She tells me she is going to divorce him and that she wants to be with me, but she is there with him now and I am alone. That's what I get I guess. I was feeling sorry for myself last night but see things differently now. I know I must accept my life for what it is because I make my own decisions.

I am happy that I have the weekend off. It's my first one off in months. I have a long 2 days ahead of me, I feel the urge to go to work just because it's been so long I don't know what to do with myself. I don't want too much time to think.

Well, I hope I haven't disturbed the flow around here. I have been MIA a while.....many hugs to you all. I miss you.

Sandra

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Sat, 08-06-2005 - 11:24am

((((((((((((sandra))))))))))))))))
well girl I don't know you so well but well we can't decide who we care for....we can't decide who we fall in love with....we can try and try but well sometimes I know for me at least....my heart and my head disagree and well most of the time my heart wins.....
I been through the "married" journey as everyone knows....
I can't say much more then that....I mean,what is there to say?
I have seen a buddy with a married gf for probably over two years now...they love how they have been "together" for two years,yet really they haven't....she lives with him....and they sneak to see each other.....
I want to be with who I love not sneak myself......
all I can say is well there isn't a moment goes by that I was ever or still now ever regret loving her.....Chasity that is(my married lady)....I would do it all again,knowing the same ending would happen....
if you ever want to talk or be listened to you can let me know and I'll get you info to email me......if I can't be anything else I can listen.....

Hugs from Jo

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Sat, 08-06-2005 - 11:54am
Awwww, sandra,
I am sorry it is a lonely time.
How long have you been seeing each other?
I have been on both sides of this type of relationship.
I think you are on the roughest end this time.
I know it is hard to make the heart follow the head at times. And sometimes it is just downright impossible.
E-mail me anytime you want to.
I know there will be times like this in the future until she leaves him.
You know you can always e-mail and or talk to me.
Miss you so much,
Hugs,
Laurie
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Sat, 08-06-2005 - 12:48pm

"all I can say is well there isn't a moment goes by that I was ever or still now ever regret loving her.....Chasity that is(my married lady)....I would do it all again,knowing the same ending would happen...."

Jo, thanks for saying that. I am not sure it's what I needed to hear but it is what I wanted to hear for sure. I wouldn't trade any of the time we have had together so far. She is the reason i don't mind going to work every day. I appreciate your friendship and you will be hearing from me soon.....

She called and is picking me up to go to lunch, how she got away from home, and him, I don't know. She knows this sucks and she is trying, it's very difficult to know she is with him when we aren't together.

Hugs, Sandra

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Sat, 08-06-2005 - 12:54pm

(((((( Sandra ))))))


I'm so sorry that you are feeling low right now about things. No words of wisdom here, just a loving hug and a shoulder.


Hugs,


Robin

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Sat, 08-06-2005 - 7:21pm

Laurie, Thanks for your support, I am grateful for you. I have known her since I started working at the hospital about 7-8 months ago. We connected on a friendship level instantly, she is very protective of me. I like her very much. We became intimate for the first time only a few days ago, I am falling hard and fast. The comment you made about having hard times until she leaves him scares me because I can't trust she will. Life can be very uncertain.

I actually started this post hours ago, she showed up and I left. I had a wonderful day- even if she did have to leave and go home to him. I could gag.

hugs and misses, email me so we can do some catching up, I want to know how you are too.

Sandra

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Sat, 08-06-2005 - 7:22pm
That's all I needed. Thank you Robin, I miss you! Sandra

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