I've got to be the stupidest thing ...

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I've got to be the stupidest thing ...
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Sat, 08-13-2005 - 3:37pm

Just a warning, this is going to be a crying-venting-ramble of a post.


I've got to be stupidest thing put on earth. Everytime someone says they " love me " there's always been a but added for good measure.

Robin

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Sun, 08-14-2005 - 2:01am
Running and bumping you both out of the stupid line. Lol.
You two are not stupid!!! Now stop the madness! Quit feeding the flames.
Cat, you know that ~S~ loves you.
Robin, you do not have to entertain the ex.
And I am not going to have cancer. (Oh great... a cancer commercial just came on.)
And Lea will find the answers.
Halo's business will pick up, or she can get another job to supplement her income untill it does.
Ginny's new antibiotics will start to work.
Jo will find her true love.
R.J. will find a wonderful true love also.
Attention on deck! All hands, now hear this... if I find you getting in the stupid line I WILL, get my zapper out once more and snap you outta here!
If I have left anyone out of the list who has been hurting or having problems I will catch you next time.
There will soon come a day when we are back to happy and laughing again.
Until then, the P.O.D., (That's Plan of the Day for all you civilians...) Is to encourage each other in positive ways and when possible with positive ideas on how to fix that which is broken.
This P.O.D. is effective immediately and will continue until further notice.
Carry on.
Hugs,
Laurie
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Sun, 08-14-2005 - 2:26am

Woooooohooooooooo Womans!.. Is she an Optimist or WHAT!?...LOL..Possible ideas on how to fix that which is broken?...


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Sun, 08-14-2005 - 3:00am
Ok, now you made me have to say it... I did not want to do this to you cat, make you eat your own words, but here goes... SNAP OUT OF IT!
There, I said it. Next I will be in my car traveling up there to kick some kitty butt! Lol.
This thing with ~S~... she has been going out of her way to make it up to you. When will it ever be enough. You two belong together. When can you forgive her. There is not another person. You heard what Sheila said when we had this problem with me being in your position...
She, many times just about blurted out that yes, ok, there is someone, just so I would stop accusing and asking etc.
Anything to make it stop. She explained it like people who are being interrogated and just say they did the crime to maybe get some rest from being interogated. (s.p.)
But even if there were someone, there is not now. She and ~S~ made their decisions who they want to spend their lives with.
I know I did things I am not proud of because I let it eat at me and I did things and justified to myself that it was ok because of what I thought she was doing.
Remember all the things she does for you. Her job, the insurance, bringing you things just because she thought of you. Your song, how she was crying when you have had your talks. Her Mom... remember?
She knows she said the wrong thing, she is sorry. You love her so much and she loves you so much.
It is time to stop hurting each other and forgive each other and oh remember that kiss.
You are who she wants cat. She is not your ex.
When will it be enough punishment for her and worry for you? Everyone has a breaking point, please do not push her to her's. Not if you really want to be with her and I assume you do or you would not be upset about all this.
I am about to call you, why are you doing this to you? You are a beautiful, loving, caring person, she knows that she will never have anyone else to love her and care for her the way she does. You know how much she loves you.
When will you start thinking about the loving caring things? And start trusting again.
She could never leave you. I hear it in her voice. My kitty cat, you are so loved by your ~S~. She cannot love anyone else, there is no room in her heart for anyone but you.
Somehow, I think there is more to this. I have never seen you so down and negative about so many things.
There is more to this I am sure. What else cat, is wrong?
Why are you using destructive and self defeating actions, to get positive results?
I love you friend, it hurts to see you so down...
Hugs,
Laurie
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Sun, 08-14-2005 - 10:22am
Thanks laurie....I do in fact believe she is out there....not sure when or how but well I have faith and the day I lose it well I still have my doggies and the strip clubs,lol..(((hugs))))to everyone from Jo
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Sun, 08-14-2005 - 10:30am
cat,you still have a sense of humor wheather you see it or not....I love you too.....you are loveable.....:)....everyone loves you here....Jo
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Sun, 08-14-2005 - 12:51pm

(((((( All ))))))


Thanks for all your support and advice, It's all sinking in. I've never asked anyone out before, they've always asked me. I guess it all starts with a Hi, right ?


Please read my post on Caly's thread ... y'all will

Robin

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Sun, 08-14-2005 - 11:02pm
(((((((((((Laurie))))))))))))) Just want you to know I did read this post and will get back to you on it when more things settle with us.. Today was a much better day.. I left message on your phone Machine about tonight.. If you want to call anytime though you know thats very welcome..... I hope you slept well last night.... ~S~ and I made some (A lot) of progress today..
((((((((Hugs Hon))))))

((((((((Hugs)))))))


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Sun, 08-14-2005 - 11:07pm
((((((((((((((jo))))))))))))))))) You are such a wonderful person.. I want you to know I read those special things you sent me at my e-mail..last night..
You have a

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Sun, 08-14-2005 - 11:31pm
((((((((((cat))))))))))
I am just now going to listen to your phone msg. I had to take a nap. lol.
I did not want to call while you two are home together because I do not want to disturb you both.
I am hoping things are going very well. I can't wait to hear all about it.
We have been thinking of you two.
I also hope you can both get some much needed rest.
Hugs,
Laurie
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Sun, 08-14-2005 - 11:41pm
(((((((laurie)))))))) We spent many hours today doing things together we like.....
We talked a

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