Wanting a baby - please give me advice
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| Wed, 08-17-2005 - 11:37am |
I'm sorry that I haven't been around much lately. I've been riding a lot at the barn where I used to keep my horse. The weather has been really hot here, but I've been having a lot of fun. I love the horses that my riding instructor lets me ride. She is so generous! She lets me come out and ride them whenever I want, even if she isn't there.
I've been having some thoughts that I kind of want to talk to you ladies about, though. I want to have a baby. I know that I can't have one right now because I need to finish school and establish myself in the literary world first, but lately, I've been wanting to have a baby so badly that it hurts. I cry myself to sleep sometimes because I know that I'm not pregnant. I'm so envious of all the girls who are having cute little babies. I just wish that every baby I see in the mall or the grocery store were my baby. I get so upset when I hear about mothers not wanting their babies or not being able to support them. I've been going to stores and looking at baby clothes and other baby stuff and pretending that I'm going to have a baby of my own.
Has anyone else ever been in a similar situation? Am I crazy? I know that I can't have a baby right now, but is it all right to pretend sometimes? What can I do to quell the baby urges and not feel so sad about not having a baby?

Let's see - I'll let you have my three children (14/11/6-months) for a whole week!!! I promise you after about two days your call me and tell me to come and get them!!!
I had my first very young (15) so I didn't have a chance to have that free time. I didn't have that time to do what I wanted. I went from child - to mother. There's plenty of time to have children. And if you cannot have one yourself you can always adopt. You would be so surprised how much easier they are about same sex partners adopt. now a days.
Babies are cute and sweet and God made them that way for a reason (as my child's pediatrician told me at the last visit). My son is 6 months old and I haven't had a full nights sleep since he's been born. His father is no-where to be found. And everytime I have to do something - work/run to store/ anything at all he has to come with me. Or I have to find a sitter and that's a whle different subject!!
You like to ride horses - enjoy it now! Because you cannot strap a car seat onto the horses back (it would be pretty funny to see though). Enjoy your life because when you have a child it's not about yourself any longer - they come first.
I love my kids - but they keep me 100% busy!!
Live your life slow - everything you want will come in time. Enjoy today and don't jump forward to tomorrow.
LOL,
Angel
Babysitting is good. My two younger sister's tell me all the time that my children are birthcontrol for them (Ha).
LOL
Angel
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I have female trouble and so I could not carry a baby. I have gone through the wishing and wanting my own baby. I never have pretended, but I did work at day cares and baby sat for some of my friends. I did not charge because it was fun for me. I wouldn't take kids into my home these days because I have to many pets.
But I still love little babies.
For some reason babies and kids always like me. And yes, it makes my heart ache to see or hear of people who abuse or neglect babies or children. I think when they give them up for adoption it is better than to put them through abuse/neglect.
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