Really confused & depressed

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Really confused & depressed
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Wed, 08-24-2005 - 12:36pm

I'm sorry that I haven't been around much lately. I guess that I've sort of been isolating myself. I've been depressed about a few different things. I'm excited about going back to college on Sunday, but at the same time, I get really anxious and apprehensive about any sort of change. I'm also really going to miss the horses out at the barn and my dogs at home when I am away at school. I know that I will be happy when I'm back at school because I'll be with my friends again and I'll be busy with school work.

The other reason that I've been depressed lately is that I am really confused about my sexuality. I feel really alone and afraid. I wish that I knew whether I was either gay or straight, but I'm beginning to suspect that I might be somewhere in between. I feel like this horrible, indecisive person.

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Wed, 08-24-2005 - 1:51pm

((((((((((Pink))))))))))) you are not a horrible indecisive person!!

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Wed, 08-24-2005 - 2:28pm

Thank you so much for your kind words. I feel so much better now. You always know the right thing to say to help me feel better, and I really appreciate it! You are a kind, loving, wonderful person.

I just read your post about your green eyed lady, and I'm so sorry that her jealous girlfriend is getting in the way of your coffee dates and time together. I hope that your special lady will be able to get things sorted out so that you can enjoy each other's company again. Just remember that you are wonderful and special, too, and that we love you!

*HUGS* I hope that you are having a wonderful day.

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Wed, 08-24-2005 - 2:52pm
Aww.. thank you dear one!!
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Wed, 08-24-2005 - 3:05pm

(((((( Pink ))))))


Robin

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Wed, 08-24-2005 - 7:57pm
Thank you! I really hope that you are feeling better. You deserve the best, and I know that we all want you to be happy.
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Wed, 08-24-2005 - 8:00pm
Thank you!
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Wed, 08-24-2005 - 9:54pm

For some it takes many years to figure out who they are. Some never do. It is ok to be confused, it is ok to hibernate will you discover yourself. It is also okay to put other things first and formost, as in school and adjusting back. Time will tell for you. First of all, take care of you and be happy.


(((hugs)))


Lea

 

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Wed, 08-24-2005 - 11:45pm
I was in that same boat in college, it was in my freshman year when I had a crush on a boy AND a girl and I was sooooo confused. Eventually I lost interest in boys altogether once I realized that it was girls I was interested in all along, but it wasn't until my senior year. So it took a long while. And there's always bi :D I thought I was for a while. You'll figure it out, have you dated both? *hugs* Good luck going back to college, I'm jealous, I miss it so much!!
~Amy
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Thu, 08-25-2005 - 12:38am

Awwwwwwwwww!

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Thu, 08-25-2005 - 12:42am
pink as a friend maybe you should see someone....A pro????you are a very nice person and well when coming out my brother had some deep issues(verge of sucide) he has later told me,....I was clueless to this....he saw someone and well this is what pulled him from this slump...people find such shame in "getting help" and to me this is a shame....I think everyone in this world could go see someone and work on themselves....we all have room for improvemants.....I was thankful for the times I needed to see a pro and did,it made me feel so much better not carrying around all that baggage.....just my thoughts....college is to me about self-discovery and can be very confusing......best of luck to you....I think you'll be ok,Jo

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