Really confused & depressed

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Registered: 11-15-2004
Really confused & depressed
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Wed, 08-24-2005 - 12:36pm

I'm sorry that I haven't been around much lately. I guess that I've sort of been isolating myself. I've been depressed about a few different things. I'm excited about going back to college on Sunday, but at the same time, I get really anxious and apprehensive about any sort of change. I'm also really going to miss the horses out at the barn and my dogs at home when I am away at school. I know that I will be happy when I'm back at school because I'll be with my friends again and I'll be busy with school work.

The other reason that I've been depressed lately is that I am really confused about my sexuality. I feel really alone and afraid. I wish that I knew whether I was either gay or straight, but I'm beginning to suspect that I might be somewhere in between. I feel like this horrible, indecisive person.

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Registered: 11-15-2004
Thu, 08-25-2005 - 7:23pm
Thanks for replying to me. I think you are right that I should just concentrate on school for now and not worry so much about my sexuality.
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Registered: 11-15-2004
Thu, 08-25-2005 - 7:36pm
I'm sorry that you miss college. It is definitely a fun time. I'm looking forward to graduate school in a year.
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Thu, 08-25-2005 - 7:42pm
Thank you!!! Your advice really helped me a lot. It makes me feel better that you don't think it's weird if I'm bi instead of gay or straight. I always worry that people will think I'm indecisive or something if I'm not one or the other.
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Thu, 08-25-2005 - 7:50pm
I went to therapy for a while last summer, but I didn't really like it. I don't know if I would go back again or not.
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Thu, 08-25-2005 - 8:51pm
Awwwww pink,
There are so many people who feel they are somewhere in between. I see nothing wrong with that. Just love people for who they are not what gender they are.
Just take it as it comes. And enjoy who you are with at the time, man or woman. Nothing wrong with being Bi-sexual.
Just be true to yourself.
I can understand how you can feel bummed about leaving home. It sounds very nice where you live. Just keep thinking about your friends and the fact that you are another step closer to your education.
I wish you the very best!
Hugs,
Laurie
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Thu, 08-25-2005 - 9:36pm
Thanks for replying to me. You are always so wonderful and supportive. I really appreciate it. I hope that you are feeling better and that everything is going well. We all love you here, and I'm so worried about you.

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