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| Wed, 08-24-2005 - 11:39pm |
well that's that... Nat and I had yet another argument about this so called relationship where I seem to be doing everything and she seems to be doing nothing and once we got through the "but I'm always sick and I cant help that" excuses and all... she finally told me she was never into this relationship in the first place, she was trying to be who I needed her to be because she wanted to make me happy and not hurt me and she had never really considered what she wanted yada yada which makes me a bit angry because I suspected as much 2 years ago and I asked her to be honest with me but it seems it was all make believe... tho she insists she doesnt feel like she was ever not honest and she did want it to work but she cant be who she is not which really sucks because there is nothing I can do to make anything any better. But I guess I am not telling anyone anything they didnt already know huh?
She wants me to be in her life, she would be devastated if she "lost" me, she doesnt want me to take any of this out on her kids... arrggghhh... how do I do that? Isnt that having your cake and eating it too?


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Ven, if she confirms what you've been feeling for the two years that she's been around you. If I were you, I would step off and go and live my life, and find someone that would want you, and only you. I've always said, "If I can't be true to myself, then how can I be true to you?" You've been true to her, not to mention gone through things that I wouldn't have put up with. I wouldn't care about her personal issues, she's a grown woman and she should know how to take care of herself. No excuses. Cut her loose and go live you life, please. I mean unless you want to continue to being used?
Cut all ties. If she takes it out on her children, then she really needs some help, it's called manipulation.
It's your choice.
Other than that, you seem to be doing better otherwise.
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I have always felt bad about the way Nat treats you. Maybe this is one of those blessings in diguise.
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