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| Wed, 09-28-2005 - 11:17am |
Hi Ladies, how is everyone? I am still job searching. I have applied to all temp. agencies and school districts with in the area for subbing. C.and I went to dinner and auction for Pride on Sat.nite, C. was mia for abit, come to find out she had run into an ex, that she was with for yr, who she was still in love with. This woman got mad with C.because she was dating, C. states she knows it was an unhealthy relationship,but still loved her and doesn't have feelings. C. asked me to be friends I said no, because of the feelings I had for her, and I asked her the same ?, she responsed with, she couldn't be just friends,and didn't want to lose me. C.saw her therapist again, no mention to the therapist about this dating stuff. Once again, C. said last night, I would do much better with someone else. I asked her if she wanted more in the dating relationship in the future, she said yes, and then said she didn't know.I told her at some point in the future I would like physical intimacy and passion, but not at this time. Well, ladies, am I trying to hard to make this work? I realize it has been only 3.5 months. We now only hold hands on occassion and I get a kiss on the cheek. I feel that this is worth the effort in dating C.and I have lots of patience, but at some point I want more. I know that she has stuff from the abuse and past relationships to work through. It like she is testing me.
Sorry for the long note. I hope everyone is well and keep Robin in prayers on Friday, as she is having surgery.Everyone stay healthy and take care. In Peace~gracemae59
Sorry for the long note. I hope everyone is well and keep Robin in prayers on Friday, as she is having surgery.Everyone stay healthy and take care. In Peace~gracemae59

I am not sure what to tell you. It sounds like she has this thing for the ex, but maybe not. It also sounds like she is unsure of your future together. Her affection is getting to be less instead of more.
I think I would see it as not going anywhere or at least not where you would like it too. Maybe it is time to move on. I think 3.5 months is long enough to get a feeling on where things are going.
If you go to long with this you might get very hurt.
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I hope you are feeling better, and wished I had an computer at home to chat with everyone.
But anyways, I thank you and take care.gracemae59
Keep us posted. I hope she can find a way to work through this more. I know it will take time.
Laurie
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