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Back from our day trip to Cinci, Ohio...
| Sun, 10-16-2005 - 4:49am |
This morning we drove the two hours to my sister's house to visit with her, my Dad and some friends.
We had a very nice day. It was good for me to get out. It was very cool in the evening but my brother-in-law made a roaring bon fire and we all sat around the fire in the burn cage sort of thing they have for bon fires. Everyone was drinking wine or coffee and we laughed and had such interesting conversations.
It was a perfect day, college football, snacks and visiting, then dinner (roast) then out to the garden patio on the most comfy lawn furniture. The fire kept us really warm.
Dad will be 80 yrs old in March and I just cannot believe it. He seems so much younger and so does his girlfriend.
I always hate leaving because I think about his age and I sometimes worry it will be the last time I see him.
He lives 7 hours away in Youngstown, Ohio.
Am I nuts for thinking like this. A worry wart? He seems so young and active and sharp as ever. I just hate that I always cry when I leave from visiting with him. Do other people worry about these things or is it my bi-polar issues.
Being with him and having such a good time is so much fun. Why the heck do I always ruin it by worrying about if I will see him again everytime I leave? Uggghhhhh! Well, it was a very nice visit even though I had panick attacks for 2 days before going and then worried about seeing him again when I left.
Does anyone else go through this? I know I should be happy that he is so healthy. He walks 2 miles every morning with his cousin. He is very active in his car club and golfing and ball room dancing etc.
He is always busy with his g/f and so many friends. I miss him so much when I leave and I cannot imagine life without him or Mom around.
We had a very nice day. It was good for me to get out. It was very cool in the evening but my brother-in-law made a roaring bon fire and we all sat around the fire in the burn cage sort of thing they have for bon fires. Everyone was drinking wine or coffee and we laughed and had such interesting conversations.
It was a perfect day, college football, snacks and visiting, then dinner (roast) then out to the garden patio on the most comfy lawn furniture. The fire kept us really warm.
Dad will be 80 yrs old in March and I just cannot believe it. He seems so much younger and so does his girlfriend.
I always hate leaving because I think about his age and I sometimes worry it will be the last time I see him.
He lives 7 hours away in Youngstown, Ohio.
Am I nuts for thinking like this. A worry wart? He seems so young and active and sharp as ever. I just hate that I always cry when I leave from visiting with him. Do other people worry about these things or is it my bi-polar issues.
Being with him and having such a good time is so much fun. Why the heck do I always ruin it by worrying about if I will see him again everytime I leave? Uggghhhhh! Well, it was a very nice visit even though I had panick attacks for 2 days before going and then worried about seeing him again when I left.
Does anyone else go through this? I know I should be happy that he is so healthy. He walks 2 miles every morning with his cousin. He is very active in his car club and golfing and ball room dancing etc.
He is always busy with his g/f and so many friends. I miss him so much when I leave and I cannot imagine life without him or Mom around.
Hugs,
Laurie
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((((((((Laurie))))))))),
I've felt worry too over my grandparents that is very similar to what you described. I think what you are feeling is to be expected. I'm glad that you were able to spend some quality time with them!
((((((((((Laurie))))))))))
I'm glad you had such a great visit with your dad.
Pieces of My Life
I always cried when I left my parents in Ohio!
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Glad to hear I am not alone in that area. I know I always feel so guilty after thinking like that or sad.
We are planning to cellibrate both Mom and Dad's B-days in Las Vegas this year. Mom will be 70 (she does not even seem like it) Dad will be 80, and seems much younger. My step-Dad and Dad's g/f my bro-in-law, sis, Sheila, and some close family friends will be going out there.Their b-days are only a week apart.
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I really do enjoy our visits! He is also very funny and we joke alot.
Sometimes I just wonder if other's have dark thoughts like I do. Even though it was a happy and fun visit, then I get the dark worrysome thoughts. I usually well used to always keep these things so locked up inside. I guess counseling is helping me to open up so much more.
I like to know what other's think or if they think like I do. Helps me know what are normal things and what are my counseling issues too.
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I guess I should be thankfull that I can at least drive to visit when I want or can. That helps alot when I think about it.
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I thought of Grandmary as I read this post. She is pushing 90 and still walking almost 5 miles a day and very active in her little circle of church friends.
For so long, I thought of her as immortal. She has outlived all of her sibblings, and sometimes I honestly feel that she may outlive my uncle and possibly my brother. Maybe even me the way I am going! But I guess that is a far fetch...
Each time I see her again, she is just a bit smaller than I remembered from the last time. And her body is a little more frail when I hug her. It does scare me some, I know that her health is failing now as does she. Her eyesight is going, her bones are brittle, she is borderline senile now...I don't know what I will do when she is gone. I guess the biggest fear is that it will happen while Eddie (my brother) is still incarcerated. I know that she and he share a bond that is tighter than what my mother or my sister or I have with her, and it will devastate my brother to not be able to say goodbye. It pains me that she may never see him again.
Ahhhh Laurie, I understand your fears. Life is so beautiful, and we never want to lose the ones we love. I hope your mom and dad have a wonderful b-day party, along with many more.
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I don't like that we worry, but I like knowing that I am not alone in this matter. I guess it does make sense.
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I'm so glad you had a good trip to see your family. Sounds like a wonderful visit. I don't think your feelings have anything to do with being bipolar. It's natural to feel sad after leaving someone you love deeply.
Hugs,
But, yes it was a very nice visit!
Laurie
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