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| Thu, 10-20-2005 - 12:41am |
Hi girls, here I am again. I have been lurking around the board a while, as often as I can. I try and keep up, but I don't do that well. I miss you all, and I am happy to see some good news around here - especially Nony and Lou's news!
I noticed a post from Pam to me, telling me to come home, I cried. I should have listened. If I would have been here more I would have probably had enough love, support, friendship, and advice to have kept me out of the mess I am in.
My life is a disaster - I am at the end of my rope - clinging on for dear life, and part of me is tired and defeated, and wants to let go. I can't go into specifics now, there are too many problems to even begin to explain. But I feel like going to bed and never waking up.
Well, that's all I have to say - nothing inspirational or even interesting. Just an update on your old friend who misses you.
Many hugs, Sandra

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We are here when you need us my friend.
I tried the staying in bed until it all goes away thing. It just put everything off for a bit.
Kind of like when you have to tinkle and you don't feel like getting out of the warm bed... but you know eventually you will have to take care of it or it will be an even bigger mess. Oh, sure, you can get away with putting it off many times... but eventually you will stretch that bladder out like a boda bag and be doomed to taking Ditropan for the rest of your life, not to mention the little tinkle winkle whenever you laugh or sneeze or cough.
In other words, things can get worse, but you can always work it out somehow.
You are a strong person, you have an inner strength that has gotten you this far in life.
You will make it through this too, whatever it is. Sometimes you just have to take a deep breath and take the bull by the horns. Expect some crap to come with it then it will be over with and you will have a story to share with someone else who is where you are now.
I hate cliches, but this to shall pass.
I know it is easier said than done. But don't ever think you have messed up so bad that you can't change it. I learned that the hard way friend and it was not pleasant. It can and will get better no matter how messed up it seems now.
We are right here when you are ready to talk about it. You know you will always have my support.
Laurie
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Tonight my world came crashing down on me in a matter of 30 min.
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No easy or profound words from me here to offer for help realy..
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Oh Sandra Hon,
BIG BIG BIG hugs. I wish I knew what to say other than all the people are here for you I'm sure as you've been such a big part of the community here. I know that you and I have talked over the last several months, so know that, if you just need to vent it all out, feel free to email me. It's listed in my prof.
BIG HUGS...I can sympathize and empathize as I feel my own life has become a ground zero site. I've just now come back and I still don't post like I used to. Like you, I mostly lurk because it's hard to find the words sometimes...
My heart's with you!
HUGS...
L.
((((((((((((Sandra)))))))
I’m sorry that you are feeling so down. Pam is gifted at having a way of letting you know she cares in the manner that you most need it. I’m glad that you decided to post. Your thoughts and feelings are valid. Venting here is not uncommon, but if you feel uncomfortable sharing here then at least find someone who you can talk to. Or, find something like an activity that enables you to better deal with frustration and difficult issues. I’ve found for myself that talking about it really helps. Sometimes I give myself a bit of time in the sauna and that helps too. Treat yourself! That sometimes helps too.
I truly hope things get better settled for you. It is nice to see you here. Hugs!
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(((((((Sandra)))))))
I am so sorry that things feel so messed up right now in your life.
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Are you ok now?
Laurie
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I have to be ok, because that's what is expected of me, the story of my life.
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halo
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